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Blur me part 3

2011-03-29T22:33:00.003+08:00

Mummy: 妹, 拿盐给我.

Me: orhh!!
(Then I walked towards the cupboard where mummy stored sugar)

Mummy: 你去哪里??

Me: Ehh!! HAHA!! 走错边lahh!!

FYI: Salt and sugar is stored at different cupboard.

Blur me part 2

2011-03-29T22:25:00.003+08:00

I was eating char siew and the sauce dripped on my feet. I tried to wipe it off using the cloth but my feet still have the stickiness feel. So I decided to wash my feet. I went to the basin and lift up my leg, put it into the basin.

The conversation between mummy and me goes like this.

Mummy: ehh!! 你干嘛把你的脚拿上来??

Me: 我要洗我的脚啊!

Mummy: 啊你很奇怪lehh!! Toilet不是有pipe给你洗脚??

Me: HAHAHA!! 对hor!!

Blur me part 1

2011-03-29T22:21:00.003+08:00

My sister is trying very hard to open the sealed packaging of her newly bought toner and failed. So she asked me to pass her a pair of scissors. Me being too lazy to move, I simply took the packaging and put it into my mouth and tried to bite off the packaging.

The conversation between my sister and me starts.

Sis: 为什么你用牙齿咬？很脏 leh, 不知道有多少人摸过，小强也有可能爬过。

妹: Eeee.... 为什么你不早说？

Me: 有脑的人都会想到 lor... 要不然干嘛叫你去拿剪刀？

2010-06-16T14:32:00.002+08:00

Should I cry??

It hurts when I saw the photos of your gf that you posted in fb.

Are you doing it on purpose??

You deliberately posted it so that I can see and stop disturbing you??

You are so cruel!

Is this what you really wanted??

Fine!

I will do what you want.

To think that we'll be able to become an item, FOOLISH ME!!

I should have listen to my friends to give up on you earlier, stupidity me to think that I still have the chance.

Anyway...

Since you have got back with ur gf, there's no point for me to keep contacting you...

All the best to you...

And...

It's really time for me to forget you...

It's going to take some time for me to do that...

It doesn't matter anyway...

Because I know that...

I deserve a better one

And...

It's worth waiting for the next one : )

2010-06-15T13:57:00.004+08:00

If I say I like you, would you take me as a fool??

How can you make me fall for you and ignore me??

How can you have made my mind full of you??

How can you have treated me this way??

How can you push me to the other guy??

Do you know how much you've hurt me??

I don't want to say this but...

Just tell me if you don't like me.

But...

Can you don't ignore me and say that you like me too??

2010-06-11T23:14:00.005+08:00

ARGHHH!!

SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU ARE DOING...

KEPT PUSHING ME TO THAT GUY...

FOR WHAT??

AND

IT REALLY BLEW UP MY TOP...

AND

DO YOU KNOW THAT...

IT HURTS TOO...

2010-06-07T21:16:00.001+08:00

You have stopped saying "I miss you" to mii...

I really miss you saying that...

And now, I really wanted to say...

I MISS YOU TOO!!

BUT...

I know...

It's already too late for saying that now...

And...

I really regretted for not saying it earlier...

2010-06-07T20:44:00.004+08:00

what a day for mii....

I forgotten to bring PIC book today and SHE ACTUALLY DROVE MII OUT OF HER CLASS JUST BECAUSE OF THAT!?!?!?!? It's not like I'm being defiant to her, sleep in class or never listen to her class and she just asked mii to leave class, crazy lorhh. FIRST TIME IN MY WHOLE LIFE, THANKS TO HER!! She gave mii 2 choices, leave the class or photostat the notes. Crazy lorhh, of course ii chose to go out, it's not like as if ii don't have the notes. I didn't say anything, took my bag and left the class. This is the first time ii acted like that. Actually I wanted to go home, but I suddenly remember that I still have to go for the stupid napfa test.

Ms felina told us a bad news today, she's going to leave us and go overseas with her husband. It's very sad because the she's the only teacher in Bishan that really cared for us and now that she's leaving, we're all very sad. She announced our recent CRM exam results, I got an "A". Seriously, I'm happy with my own results because I really studied hard for this exam. But knowing that a really nice teacher is leaving really makes mii down. I will miss her a lot, haha...

Napfa test today is super tiring and my body is aching now. Normally my standard for standing broad jump is 160cm to 165cm, but today ii got 172cm. Incline Pull up normally is 0 and now 5. I think its the anger I had today transfered into strength, haha...

Today didn't really check my hp for new messages because I know that you will never sms mii. It's better not to have expect that you will text mii, if not I'm going to be hurt again. But I somehow wanted to see your message just like before...:(

2010-06-06T14:38:00.008+08:00

I shall start~

Hmmm, actually I knew this guy for I think about 2 years, and we met once before but probably its an outing with my friends, he is very quiet. First impression for him is quiet, quiet and VERY QUIET. I don't know what topic to chat with him also and that makes the few of us very awkward. After that first meet up with him, he tried to asked mii out but because I'm afraid of the awkwardness and ii often rejects him. Thereafter, he stopped texting mii and we didn't contact each other for quite some time. I tried to keep in touch with him by texting him because I didn't want to lose a friend because of that.

Recently, he broke up with his girlfriend, and we started chatting online and followed by texting. Every morning ii woke up, there's 1 new message in my inbox which ii was quite happy to see that. Last friday, he asked mii to go watch a movie with him, and because I'm very boring at home, so I went. The booked the 6 plus time slot of "prince of persia" and we meet quite early and he said he was hungry and we went to eat at long john silver. He said that it was very weird for him to eat alone, and so, ii asked him to help mii buy the fries. He came back with the meal instead. ii was quite full already and since he bought it for mii, ii have to eat. ii still remember he said " you so skinny, ii must buy more for u, to make u go fat. " Although ii didn't say anything, but actually, ii was quite happy because ii didn't expect him to say that. After that when we are in the cinema, the movie we was watching is really boring for mii, and ii fall asleep very quickly. The sound system is quite loud sometimes and ii suddenly woke up a few times and ii find myself leaning on his shoulder. I didn't think much and continue with my sleep. He woke mii up when the movie ended and he suddenly took off a towel on my leg. So ii thought, he scared that ii might catch a cold and put his towel on my leg because ii was wearing shorts. The thought of that makes mii so happy. Actually, I'm the kind of girl that will be touched by very little things, just like what he did to mii. Although it is a very trivial matter, but to mii, it's very touching. = )

On Saturday, we was chatting in msn, and he said that he was doing a report and also he miss mii. And ii told him "don't miss mii, do your report!!". I don't know if ii sounded harsh or what, he stopped talking and texting mii for a week. So, ii took initiative to text him, ii asked him whether ii said something that makes him angry or wat and he said that he was busy and will not be free for the next 6 weeks. Then ii told him not to give himself too much stress and he didn't reply mii :( . I saw him online in msn, and ii pm him and he actually offline after that without replying mii. My mind is in a whirl. The only thought in my mind is, is he avoiding mii or wat? But how can it be when he doesn't even know that I like him??

For the one week that he didn't text mii, ii was very sad, ii actually miss him. I'm always checking my phone for new messages and when there's one, ii was happy but it's not him. I'm the kind of person that don't express myself. Whenever he said he miss mii or what, ii will just put a smiley face and asked him not to miss mii but actually ii miss him but ii don't really dare to say it out. I regretted for not saying "ii miss you too" to him :( . I texted him yesterday, and the attitude he replied back has changed. ii don't know how to put it, it's totally different from the previous chatting. Then ii was thinking, if you're not interested in mii, then why should u treat mii so good and even said that you wanted to protect mii? ii asked him whether he's free yesterday night, but he didn't reply mii. Then ii told myself, it's time to forget him. No reply from him is the best answer for mii to forget him. BUT, he smsed mii in the morning!! ii was SO DAMN HAPPY when ii saw his name, but seriously, ii didn't know what he's thinking...

I like him not because of his looks, anyway, he's not handsome, ii like him because the way he treated mii is very sweet. :)

is it all my wishful thinking?? Am I reading too much into it?? Is he just treating mii as a friend and not something else?? A short romance?? I don't know~

Anyway, I have stopped being emo, im back to myself, let nature take it's course bahh..:)

The good thing is, there's still someone who cares for mii. I really appreciate it. When one is feeling down, the most important thing is you know there's still some of them who cares for you, it's really warmth.

2009-12-24T11:34:00.008+08:00

SECONDARY SCHOOL FRIENDS IS THE BEST!!!<3<3<3

Monday

Meet up with huimin, shufeng and ivan to buy the things that needed for our BBQ on wednesday, basically everything at giant, haha. Ohya!! Shufeng drives!! A skilled driver, not like someone who have just gotten the license, haha. Make mii feel like learning driving also. Hmmm, after buying those things, we went to ivan's house to marinate the chicken wings and all that. Alvin joined us after that. We even prepared dinner at his place. A few simple dish, only the few of us but the whole atmosphere is awesome. Chattings and laughings through out. After the dinner, we watched paranormal activity. But before that, "something" happened. Alvin went missing out of sudden. We searched everywhere in the house and the corridor, he was not there. He didn't pick up the call when we called them. Huimin and mii was frighten of course and we were saying that "oops!! "PARANORMAL ACTIVITY!!" haha. Few minutes later, alvin pushed open the door, saying that he went smoking. Alvin is always scaring people, haha. Afterwhich, we finally started our movie. We were all sitting very close to each other, shared the blanket. The feeling is describable. Alvin was beside mii, like ii said, he is always trying to scare people, he came close to mii out of sudden and ii was too engrossed in the movie, ii feel that something is staring at mii, ii turned my head, and his face was very near mii. Super scary!! Even scarier than the movie, just joking.

Back to the topic, the movie is really frightening. Although we can't really see the demon, but the feeling is absolutely terrifying. ii was wondering why this movie have 3 different ending. But anyway, it is nice. Because it was too late, shufeng drove us home. Ivan and alvin even accompanied mii to my doorstep because ii was really scared, haha. Hmmm, ii was insomnia that night, because of the movie. ii can't help looking at the door and fear that "something" will drag mii down my bed. haha...

Tuesday

Went jurong point with colin to watch Avatar. Quite a nice movie but the front part is too boring that ii fell asleep. Lucky colin wake mii up saying that the war is going to start, if not ii think ii might miss out the best part. Hmmm, after the movie, litmus came to join us. AND, It's time to choose my present! haha. Colin said that he don't know what to buy for mii and asked mii to choose myself and his budget was below $100. Seriously, ii didn't know what to buy and we walked up and down jp and finally we stopped at 77th street, ii saw the dickies bag ii like. Then ii told him that ii want that bag and asked him to pay, haha, so good. Actually he still wanted ii to buy some more but ii think it is enough for mii, ii shouldn't be so greedy. haha.

Wednesday

The day has come!! haha!! Have been looking forward to this day. Hmmm, the same thing, shufeng came over to my place to fetch mii and headed down to siyao's house because ivan went out to buy christmas present. So we have to find some place to slack in the meantime. Fell asleep again at siyao's house while waiting for ivan to go home. haha. FINALLY, ivan called and said that he is going home, and we all headed down to ivan's house in shufeng's car, woo!! Reached ivan's house, it is surprised that we were all in black t-shirt when nobody discussed about what to wear, haha.

After that, huimin and mii prepared for the bbq and the guys was inside ivan's room playing L4D2. They are automatic enough, played for awhile and came out to help us. And waited for everyone to come. Howchwen is the last to come, late some more but its alright, at least he came. We were quite disappointed that mingkang did not come.

Hmmm, finally, the bbq started, we were all busy eating and playing poker cards. And ii heard alvin telling them about don't know throw what into the pool and ii was a little worried that they will throw mii because they suddenly asked mii when was my birthday. AND, as expected, ii was the person that they targeted. ii tried to sneak away but shufeng suddenly hug mii from beside with his full strength and alvin came to help him pulled mii to near the pool and THREW mii in to the pool. Lucky ii know how to swim, haha. They showed no mercy, my god!! The water was so COLD and my clothes are so heavy. My image was ruined, haha, but anyway, it's okie lahh, haha. Got the chance to swim, hees. Waited for ivan to bring down the towel. Ivan tried to pull mii out of the pool but he uses too much strength that he almost tear my arm apart. It was really pain and they quickly asked him to let go of my hand. ii quickly swam to the stairs and walked up to the towel because it was really cold. ii was all wet, worst is ii only bring a tank top to change and nothing else. ii was shivering all thanks to the guys huh!! but, ii did have a lot of fun, hees. Howchwen is gentleman enough lahh, helped mii to put on the his jacket.

After that ii went up to ivan's house to take a bath. Ivan lend mii his shorts. Awww!! It was ugly!! Huirong knocked on the door and asked mii whether ii've done. ii quickly wear my clothes and opened the door. And, huirong asked mii to close my eyes and they lead mii to the sofa. When ii opened my eyes, a cake is in front of my eyes and they sang mii the birthday song. ii was really surprised. Never thought that they will plan this surprise birthday celebration for mii. Seriously, ii was touched, really. Huimin gave mii my present, a pair of pump, telling mii that this pair of shoe will accompany mii through out my future if im not wrong. haha. HUIMIN, ii forgot to give you 20 cents!!!! Hmmm, after that, cutting the cake that was well decorated by huimin and ivan brought out red wine and poured mii a cup whereas others little bit. Of course ii didn't finished it, ii only had 2 sips, haha. Cause ii really don't drink. After everything, Ivan played the guitar and sang mii 3 songs and we went back home. Lucky shufeng is willing to drive mii home, because the shorts im wearing is very ugly, ii will not wear this out to take a bus. And ya, home sweet home. haha...

Good times always passed very quickly.....
ii really have fun with them, wanted to be with them forever!!
ii love you guys!! <3
MUACKS MUACKS MUACKSSSS!!!

2009-12-02T17:54:00.002+08:00

SOMEONE ACTUALLY DID A COUNTDOWN FOR MY BIRTHDAY!!!

SERIOUSLY, I'M REALLY SHOCKED!!

Haha, xiwen (prefer calling you raymond lehh), thank you!! Really glad that you actually remember my birthday!! ii still haven't unwrap the present you gave mii. Don't really bear to unwrap it, I'm afraid that they will go dirty, haha.

2009-11-25T13:34:00.005+08:00

TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO TAG GUORONG AND SARA'S BLOG.

PLEASE STOP ALL THESE NONSENSE THAT YOU'VE ALL DID. SARA DOESN'T INVOLVED IN THIS MATTER. PLEASE DON'T GET HER INVOLVED! PLEASE LEAVE HER ALONE. PLEASE READ MY SECOND ENTRY, I DON'T CARE WHO IS SIDING WHO. PLEASE DON'T BRING UP THIS MATTER ANYMORE. THINGS IS ALREADY OVER.

PLEASE STOP TAGGING THEM, LEAVE THEM ALONE! DON'T GET THEM INVOLVED! YOU ARE NOT HELPING ME, IN FACT YOU ARE MAKING THINGS WORST. PLEASE!

I THINK I NEED TO CLARIFY MYSELF ABOUT THE "GHOST". I TOLD YOU THAT THE BUS IS CROWDED, AND YOU REPLY ME SAYING THAT ACTUALLY THERE'S STILL A LOT OF SPACE BEHIND JUST THAT THE PEOPLE DON'T WANT TO MOVE. THEN I REPLIED HIM SAYING THAT "YA LORHH, BECAUSE BUHIND GOT GHOST MAHH, THEY ARE SCARED TO MOVE BACK, I'M NOT REFERRING TO YOU, DON'T BE TOO SENSITIVE. AND HE REPLIED "DO YOU THINK I CARE?" THEN, I SAID I DON'T KNOW. THEN HE SAID "CAUSE YOU'RE STUPID". IT IS JUST A ANALOGY, I DON'T MEAN ANYTHING. OKAY, YOU SAID THAT THERE'S A ELDERLY BLOCKING THE WAY. DO YOU THINK I'M ABLE TO SEE IT FROM THE FRONT? I'VE ALREADY SAID THAT IT IS VERY CROWDED. EVERYBODY IS SQEEZING IN FRONT. SO HOW CAN I SEE IT FROM INFRONT? AND YOU DIDN'T TOLD ME ABOUT THAT WHEN WE'RE IN THE BUS.

2009-11-23T19:03:00.007+08:00

A lot of things happen this few weeks. And, seriously, I got overwhelmed by what has happened. Yes, what's done can never be undone. It's not that I wanted to make things worst, I've tolerate him for more than once. People who know me well enough would know that I'm not a hot-tempered person. I don't flare up for no reason. Many a times, I told myself that I have to endure, but what he does to me is really too much. I know I'm wrong to tell mingyang. I'm not the one who ask him to look for you. My mum knew that I don't have the courage to solve the problem. And so, she asked mingyang to help me settle this problem. I know that once mingyang came to look for him, everything would be totally different. But what can I do? He's going overboard, does that mean that I have to tolerate for the rest of my life in ite? I have already smsed him saying that mingyang is there to help us clarify our misunderstandings. And I'm still willing to be friend with him, he didn't reply me or maybe he deleted it.

So, what's wrong with a quiet person? Does that mean that you can walk over a quiet person? 7 MONTHS, I've endured for 7 months, imagine that. You are a nice person, I know and I can feel it. I don't mind you joking with me. But what you did is insulting me, just like the facebook issue. I agree that I don't have the figure but I'm a girl, how can you make such comment. Since you said that you're not the one who commented it, I accept. You did apologise to me, but I'm angry at that time, of course I will ignore you. Just like when you are emo, we talk to you, and you ignored us. It's the same.

I know that they will side you, and I really don't mind. Cause every people have their own perception. I'm not sensitive to the word "stupid". I've already told you to stop but you still continue telling them. You should know that you have a loud voice, so basically EVERYBODY heard that. You need pride but that doesn't mean that I don't need it. You said it like it's my fault. So do I need to apologise to you for not telling you that I'm angry earlier. You called mii stupid more than once. If it is you, would you also feel offended? Go round asking people, who will not feel offended when you called them stupid and still smile to you. Please let me know that there's such person. I wanted to scold that person stupid also. Like I said, I'm not sensitive to the word "stupid". I feel so angry because you've been too sarcastic to me. There's a limit to my patient. Once it's beyond my limit, I will just flare up. You think about it yourself, how many times have you been so sarcastic to me. If I scold you stupid, how would you feel? Think about it. If things can be solved so easily, then why would we still need policeman? why would mingyang choose to come over? You're the one who started it. You don't feel good, I don't feel happy either. Anyway, it takes two hands to clap, we were both in the wrong.

I know to most of you, this issue is insignificant. But to me, it's already beyond my limit. There's no way that I have to tolerate him for so many days, it's totally illogical, I know that I'm being extreme. I understand that we're are classmates, and I shouldn't have made things ugly, but it really reaches my limit. If you were in my position, what will you do, how you feel?. Just keep quiet and let him continue untill the last day in ite? Anyway, Things accumulate too much will eventually burst out. This matter has affected most of you. I'm sorry to have made things difficult for you.

Regarding the service learning module, mdm seet wanted us to choose our group leader. Nobody wanted to be the leader, and they asked me to be the leader. I was like okie, anyway nobody wanted that, so I take the lead. I spent so much time doing the proposal and I received the email from her saying that she wanted two other girls to be the leader, but as for me, I take on because someone have to take the lead. And ask the two of them not to disappoint her. I mean, in the first place, why you wanted us to choose our group leader. You should have ask the two of them to be leader. How can a teacher say this kind of thing? She make it like I was hogging the place and don't want to let them be the leader. It's like I put in so much effort in the proposal and yet you say things like that. No point being a leader at all, since she put it this way. All my efforts have gone down to the drain. Anyway, I'm going to tell her that I don't want to be the leader anymore, since she like the others to do so.

Really thanks to my two ten years friend, shiyun and shuting!! Ten years friend, you know who you are. You cheered me up when I was feeling down. Thanks yunn for being my listening ear for so long. And last but not least, thanks shuting for always stood beside me and calm me down. I really appreciate it a lot. THANKS A BUNCH!!!

2009-07-28T18:05:00.002+08:00

What a madden and ill-starred day!!! I'm not angry because someone took the portable aircon away, im just feeling frustrated when that stupid baoguang took the tube whereby the warm air is released and he stupidly held it in his hands and the air from the tube just blow straight onto my hair. He's just so juvenile!!! Irritating guy!!! This is still not end of it, subsequently, because of a small mistake ii've made, ii got told off by mdm seet right in front of the whole class in ofa lesson. Or ii can put it this way, the mistake that most of them made. Is there a need that you have to scold mii in front of everybody? Is it fully my fault? Sorry to say, ii don't think so!!! You should have explain it to us before we even started. What you expect when you asked us to do when you didn't even elaborate on how to do it. What more do you want? Of course we won't meet to your expectations when what you want is not delivered clearly to us!! Secondly, we are already grown ups, ii can understand what you are saying. ii've already told you that ii will change it but you still continue your scolding. Thirdly, you only scolded mii and not the others when we shared the same mistake? In front of everyone some more. Ain't you biased. ii know that you wanted us to have a good grade, but that's definitely not the way!!! . It's irksome!!!!!

2009-07-23T18:46:00.002+08:00

ii have been too busy to blog all these while, busy making stars and hearts for my dears. That explains why my finger hurts. And ii don't really have enough sleep either. Anyway, i'm happy to do all these. =) Got to blog from last Sunday. Readers, bear with it huh, ii've got A LOT to things to write, haha.

Sunday, 19 July 2009

My dearest daddy's birthday and we went to Long Beach Restaurant which is at IMM for dinner to celebrate daddy's birthday as well as a gathering with Aunt and family. This year should be daddy's most happiest birthday because his dearest sister is here to celebrate with him. Not only daddy is happy, our whole family had the same feeling as well. The place is very crowded when we get into the restaurant and it's almost empty when we leave. Yupp, we are inside for more than 2 hours, haha. Aunt Elinna secretly bought daddy a birthday cake and when the waitress brought out the cake, daddy is really shock and he kept smiling. We sang him a birthday song and photo-taking session began, haas. ii can see that daddy is really feeling joyful because happiness is written all over his face. ii enjoyed playing with my 3 cousins either, haha....

Wednesday, 22 July 2009

It's the last day Aunt Elinna and family staying in Singapore. We went to see them off. ii gave them the stars and hearts I've made to them. Darrell asked mii if they are made by mii and ii told him yes, he said, then I'll take them. They all asked mii the same questions, ii wonder why, haha. Darrell even asked mii to teach him how to make. Handicraft session starts, haha. He is very smart, he learnt them within 5 minutes. ii was so impressed because ii spent almost a day to learn that. And, he still claimed that he's very slow. He's really sarcastic, haha. Subsequently, we made our way to the departure point. We all took pictures outside there. After everything is done, it's also time for them to check-in. This is the time whereby the circumstances became very serious. Everybody started hugging each other goodbye. Aunt Elinna cried and when ii saw her, my nose soured too. Tears formed in my eyes. ii really hate to part with them. Thoughts about them made mii cry. ii started missing them. Don't know when we can see each other again...........

Thursday, 23 July, 2009

ii went to hand in my cmb assignment today, topic on if ii had only 24 hours left. She says forget it. I've really wasted my time racking my brains on how to do that. Stupid assignment, it isn't related to our course either!!! After ii left the office, ii crushed my assignment and threw it into the bin. Can't she put it in a nicer way? Forget it, ii don't care a hoot. That explains why everybody loathes her.

I'll upload the photos another day......=)

2009-07-16T20:06:00.004+08:00

ii went to the night safari yesterday evening with my aunt & her family, haas. Actually they planned to go to the zoo as well but it's already closed when we reached there. It's also too early to visit night safari, so we sat at the table there enjoying the ben & jerry's ice cream. Dylan and mii wasn't too hungry, so we both shared one ice cream. Darrell and Mandi both ordered a personal one, haas. The share they gave is rather big, both of us can't really finish it. The 3 ice cream cost $39.90. Can you believe it? It's way too expensive! The moment Dylan and mii heard about the amount, we tried our best to finish off. Anyway, we really have had a long and nice chat there. Hmmm, not everything in US is cheap, for example, it cost 50K US dollars just to study in US. Oh my goodness!! It's too EXPENSIVE!!!! ii put off the idea to study in US, ii didn't really want to stress up my parents, haas. It's about time to take a stroll to the night safari, anyway, it's not a long stroll, it's just beside the zoo, haas. We watched the Bornean Tribal Performers when we got in. They performs tribal dances, blowpipe demonstrations, and fire-eating displays. ii wonder if they will burn off their tongue, haas, it looks so dangerous. We decided to took a tram for the journey. It costs $10 per person, it's costly but no choice, it's too dark for us to walk. We'll never know what is beside us. If we chose to walk, there's some places that is forbidden, we might lose out some animals. And so, we waited for the tram, got up and the journey of night safari starts. ii sat between Darrell and Dylan, felt secure, haha. There's no lights along the trail and it's really dark. We're smart enough for not choosing to walk. Although it's quite dark, we could at least see the animals. When we're done half of the journey, unknowingly what animal is that, made noises. It sound so spooky and it's very cooling at night, so dark, really scares us. Because ii woke up at 7 in the morning, ii felt really sleepy and yawning all the way, haha. We reached a dark place, the tram stopped suddenly and there's this Malayan Tapir stood just beside Darrell. He could simply just touch it. ii thought its a fake one, haha. It's really so near us, so scary!! The journey ended very quickly, Uncle Johnny ( Daniel uncle's friend ) came to bring us to bukit timah for supper. His 7-seater car just feel so comfortable that Dylan and mii feel asleep very quickly. After that they sent mii home, it's about 10.30pm when ii reached home. ii went to bed after my bath, it's a tiring and happy day out with Aunt!!!

Hmmm, ii felt really stress today, be it studies or relationship. ii reached school early today and went to canteen to find my classmates. Chenchen told mii that guorong sms her to ask if I'm going for steamboat after our lesson ended, if i'm going, he won't be going because ii didn't want to see him. And I'm not the one who started it! He's just so juvenile. It's as if my fault. Plus, ii didn't really know how to do microsoft excel, so many poa homework, my brother's health, so many problems going on. I'm just so stress..........

2009-07-09T16:13:00.003+08:00

Hmmm, got to blog about yesterday. Supposing, my lesson should end at 1pm but my class advisor is very kind, she let us off early. Just nice, I'm meeting my aunt to bugis at 2pm. ii reached home at aout 1.15pm, prepare everything and went out to find her. When ii reached the bus stop, they are already there, waiting for mii. ii was so guilty!! Anyway, ii took them to bugis to shop. Aunt told mii that it's very crowded thus she doesn't really know how to buy things. Everything is just so messy!! haas, that's just bugis!! Always packed with youngsters. She treated mii the mochi ice cream. It just taste heavenly!! ii was so happy when ii eat sweet stuffs. Subsequently, we went back to jurong point to meet my parents for dinner. While waiting, darell was pestering his mum to allow him to go arcade. We went in and watch him play the dance dance revolution. He was very good at it. ii wonder how much he spend in US just to play it. There's this street basketball beside and one idian guy is playing. ii turned to dylan and tell him that, that guy can simply just put the ball in to the hoop. Not by throwing, we both laughed, haas. Dylan is really cute!! He's afraid of people ticklering him. Every time ii walk beside him, ii will tickle him. And he seize the chance to tickle mii when ii didn't notice him. So bad of him. Darrell joined us after that. Two versus one, hais.....After that, we went to a restaurant for our dinner. Anyway, ii just love going out with them!! haha..ii reached home at about 10.30pm, the first thing ii did after changing was lying on my parents big bed. ii was so tiring after the whole activity.

It's mr zaki's birthday today, and we all shared money to buy him a birthday cake and sang him birthday song. He looked so surprised, haha. After that, we ate the cake using our bare hands, no folks, hais. Anyway, the cake is nice, ii love the cream, hees. Subsequently, we have ofa lesson at the computer lab and everyone logged in to facebook. One of my classmates saw guorong renamed mii as " dennis's wifey " in friends for sales. She asked him why he renamed mii as that. ii went in to check, and ii was really fed up, and ii shouted at him. It's the first time ii do this kind of thing!! He later changed it to "guorong's wifey". ii was very very angry!! ii just wanted to say, I'm nobody's wifey!! He's just so childish!! Don't really feel like talking to him. Irritating!!!

2009-06-25T23:51:00.003+08:00

Hmmm, ii just came back from the family gathering at my eldest aunt house. Hmmm, I've not seen some of them for years!! Can't even recognise some of them. Can you believe it? Anyway, there's story behind it. Anyway, ii have a really nice chat with Darrel. ii thought ii would have difficulty talking to him but I'm surprised that ii can actually chat with him for the whole one hour, more than that ii think, haha. He also have an ipod touch and we exchanged our ipod. I was quite surprised that in his ipod, there's chinese songs! His favourite song is " gei wo ni de ai " by tank, haas. We chatted about branded goods and Darrel mentioned about this brand that ii couldn't quite remember and ii don't think Singapore have this. He said that since we don't have the brand here, he wanted to buy one shirt for mii and here in Singapore, i'm the only one who have it. That's what he says, haas. ii just hope that he won't forget that, hees. Anyway, ii have a nice time there with Darrel, ii even thought that ii will be quite lonely there, haas. I'll hang out with him quite soon!! hehe...

He's Darrel...XD

And he's Dylan...=)

2009-06-23T13:53:00.003+08:00

Aunt Elinna is back here in Singapore for holiday!! I've not seen them for almost 10 years, kind of miss them, hehe. They live in her friends house that is very near to us, hehe. We went to visit them on the Sunday night. I was surprised that aunt Elinna didn't change much in the appearance. She just looked young as before. Of course, we are overjoyed, especially daddy. Because, daddy dote on her a lot, =). Anyway, I'm very happy seeing them. =)

Last night, jianfeng told mii that my ex is now his classmates. What a small world!!! ii just hope that nothing happens..........

2009-06-20T20:43:00.002+08:00

Two days ago had a bbq at mdm seet, our class advisor house. It's at serangoon and we all meet up quite early so that we will not be late. The place is not bad but its way too stuffy and the swimming pool is very small. Chats along the way, hehe. Played heart attack with my classmates and mr zaki, our poa teacher. In the end, most of our hands are burning red, haha. Yes, it's VERY pain but it's also very fun!! After the whole thing, we all get prepared to go home. And along the way, ii heard something about MII again!! Shaohui didn't revealed much. He just said that it's something about mii. ii reached home at about 11.30pm and quickly went to bath online after that. Shaohui pm mii and told mii that baoguang told one of my classmates that guorong act emo just to let mii see. And guorong just happen to hear it. ii was speechless. Hais, ii just wanted to say, ii don't want to get attach now especially with my own classmates. Don't really feel like talking about boy girl relationship now. ii mean not when ii really found someone ii really like. So please don't spread rumors anymore!! ii really can't take it sometimes. ii know it's just a joke but somehow ii don't feel quite nice about it. ii really hope that these kind of rumors will end...

2009-06-12T21:22:00.005+08:00

Yeah!!! So excited!! I'm officially on my holiday!! Busy for the whole two months, and finally, here comes my holiday. Went to the pc show with yunn in the afternoon. Before that, we or rather yunn went to have lunch at pizza hut. Something which ii find it interesting happened.

The story goes like this...We were lead to a table for 4, and there's one table behind yunn that was occupied by two guys. Don't really know what they are talking about but they kept looking at the direction of us. After that, another group of guys came in to seat behind mii. ii was told that, one of them with kept on looking at us, AGAIN. Yunn knew that the guy behind her was looking at us through the mirror behind mii. Yunn said that she is very stress because her place is very dirty and they kept looking. All their direction is towards us. ii don't think we dressed ourselves very weird. Don't know what are they looking at. But anyway, we went to the pc show after the lunch. It was very crowded that we were all walking like a penguin, haas. After that we travel back to JP. We went to ntuc to " pian chi pian he " because i'm really very hungry..haha. Anyway, it's been a nice day out..

Daddy bought mii a ipod touch! ii love daddy always!! haha. Like ii said, daddy is the best boyfriend ever....=)

2009-05-21T19:01:00.002+08:00

Wahh!! ii just finished my napfa test today!! Almost 1 year didn't run le, its killing mii!! But, ii was so happy that it ended. Did all the stations plus 2.4km run. Everything do in one day, can die ahh. And, yes, whole body is aching especially my leg and stomach, so painful. We went to the canal beside our school, it's so a remote place that only our school mates is there running and nobody else. And the weather is so FINE that everyone is sweating before we run. After the run, ii was feeling very unwell. My stomach pain like something is pinching you from inside, and ii can hardly hear a thing from my ear. Im fortunate enough that ii didn't turn blackout and faint but ii really did feel like vomiting. ii don't even have the strength to walk back to school!! Finally ii made it back to my school and took my rest in the canteen. My monitor reminded mii to buy H2O or 100 plus to drink. And ii was surprised that dennis, my classmates, went to pour warm water for mii. Omg!! It's so sweet of him, hehe. Actually ii was feeling better but when yanting, classmates again, took out her perfume and sprayed it on herself, ii started feeling nauseating again. And finally, ii went to the toilet and threw up. After ii came back from the toilet, dennis asked mii if ii vomited. ii told him ii threw up and there's still some strands of chin chow swimming in the toilet bowl, haha. So disgusting!! ( for your information, ii did drank some chin chow before ii went to the toilet, hehe. So tired now...

2009-05-15T18:33:00.007+08:00

I was very vexed today!! HE was so sarcastic!! ii can't take it any longer!! Yesterday night chatted on the phone with him, the way he talk really pisses mii off. He told mii that he is going backpacking at Europe. And said that he didn't want to bring mii abroad. ( he once said that he wanted to bring mii abroad.) Then, ii told him that it's okie, anyway i'm not so keen about it. He added, wait until your future husband to take you overseas la. Then he said, ii think you'll not get married. He shouldn't have curse mii in this way. ii told him that even if ii didn't get married, daddy will look after mii. He said, until then, he's already old, how to take care of you. Then ii told him that ii will take care of daddy and he laughed. And, he told mii that ii will become a " ah lian ". He wanted mii to skip school, sleep in class. Why did he ask mii to do all the bad things? ii feel that he hates mii a lot but why he still wanted to contact mii? He wanted mii to feel guilty? I'm already is, what more he wants? Irritating!!! He scolded mii when ii rejected him, seriously, ii don't blame him. ii knew that he needed to vent his frustrations. But this time, it's really too much! ii don't live to let u scold, moreover, my parents don't scold mii, so , who are you to scold mii? You're only my god mum's son! I'm already very stressed in my school work, and here he's putting more stress on mii. He said that he like mii, scolding mii, saying sarcastic remarks, asking mii to do bad things and add on stress on mii called like mii? ii don't think so. ii really wanted this to put to an end, but he don't think the same way as mii. He once criticised my ex, and now ii think that he's even more worst then him. At least my ex won't say all these things to hurt mii.

I'm very touched! Most of my friends knew that i'm unhappy and they tried ways to cheer mii up. ii really apprecitiate it. Thanks a lot!! Love you guys!! I'll not mention who le, you know who you are!!

2009-05-03T13:16:00.002+08:00

Woohoo!! I'm currently down with flu, cough and sorethroat, congrats mii!! haha. Don't feel quite well especially this few days. ii don't really have the appetite to eat and thus that made mii lose 3kg of my weight. Don't envy mii ohh! haas.

ii really felt really bad yesterday. Because i'm sick and partly also ii got scolded by someone. ii know he felt very bad, ii don't feel good either. ii don't mind him scolding mii, but ii really don't like those words asking mii to delete his contact number. Shiyun said that he wanted mii to feel guilty. In fact, ii was, what more he wants from mii? He sms mii telling mii that he was sorry for being harsh and hope that ii understand. ii know how he felt, and ii didn't even blame or angry with him. ii can tolerate any thing but spare mii from saying those hurting remarks like asking mii to delete away his contact number. I'm sorry for hurting you deeply, ii don't want it to happen either. What ii can say now is, I'm really sorry.

Mummy suspect someone is stalking mii!!! omg!!! ii better be careful when going out...

2009-04-19T17:58:00.004+08:00

Yesterday went out for dinner wif daddy, mummy and jiejie to je interchange. ii ate quite a lot, haha. After that, we took bus 334 home. It was very pack inside the bus, all the seats are taken up, so, we have to stand. There's this group of Philippines boarded and stand in front of jiejie and mii. They all carried an unpleasant smell with them. One of them was standing in front of jiejie and she almost step on her leg. Jiejie tapped on her shoulder and told her to be more careful in case she step on her leg and she will get it from her. She didn't care and keep on trying to move backwards. We were pushed right back to the glass. ii was coughing very badly and the really unpleasant smell kept making mii coughing. And finally, ii feel like vomiting. ii even made the puke sound. The Philippines kept pushing mii and ii really feel like vomiting on her. They really smells! It was really stuffy inside the bus and ii needed fresh air! Yucks!!! They can still be so arrogant when they are at other people's country. Finally, we reached our stop and ii quickly ran down the bus for my FRESH AIR! ii regretted not vomiting on her! ii don't think she would mind because she's already smells.

We reached home after that and preparing to welcome uncle Daniel from new york to our house. He came back to run some errands in Singapore and paid us a visit in his free time. He came alone and he took the first class seats and spend 10K us dollars just to fly to Singapore. It was so expensive! His english is very standard and I'm able to understand, haha. ii like to listen to him talking, haha. He told us that they will come back to Singapore for holiday in the mid June. Just nice, ii was enjoying my holiday, haha. See you in June!!

Recently, my auntie opened a blogshop selling lady's clothes, bags and etc. She's still trying to get more apparels, bags, accessories and more from taiwan. http://yuanlinzhi.blogspot.com/ . So, do drop by and support if possible. Thanks!!

2009-04-15T20:21:00.003+08:00

I'm very very very very tired this few days because I've started my life in my new school, clement ite. Yes, ite ( it's the end ), just joking. Actually, ii don't really like ite because blah blah blah, don't really need to list out. But after ii went in, met a lot of friends there, my classmates, my junior in my secondary school and my primary school best friend. How a coincidence, haha.

First and second day of the orientation camp

Hmmm, met up with leewoon on the first day because I'm afraid that ii might get lost, after all, its my first day travelling there. But, blur mii, went up to the wrong bus. So in the end, ii still have to go alone. But ii insisted on waiting for her because i'm really really scared. Although she accompanied mii, but still, ii have to carry on with my life alone after that. And so, ii tried to be brave. Tried to approach my classmates, haha. Got to know 4 new friends, which i'm really proud of myself, * claps *. Actually, it's quite boring in class because I'm seated right behind the room and what the class advisor said, ii totally can't hear and her talking is hypnotism which makes everyone in the class lied on the table. And, she can still continue with her talk, really take my hats off her. We are supposed to have a cheer competition on the third day of the camp and we have to prepare for out cheer. We played games also, haha. I'm really having a great time with my new classmates. Xiwen came to look for mii and pass mii my birthday present in school. He went to the arcade to pick up the lilo & stitch for mii. ii wonder how much he spent. Should be quite a lot. Thanks to him, haas. The bears are too cute that ii don't really bear to unwrap the wrapping paper. =)

Third day of the camp

We have our outdoor games today. But after the second station, it rains. I'm kind of happy for that because the weather is hot when it's not raining. We were asked to go back to the multi-purpose hall to do aerobics. Unfortunately, my shoes cannot make it because it's spoilt. But one of my classmates brought a pair of slippers to school and she lent mii. ii wore slippers to the stage, so embarrassed. Anyway, ii enjoyed myself a lot. But i'm also make myself very tired. Everyday when ii came back home, ii will fall asleep. Maybe I'm stil not used to school life, haas.

Hmmm, 16 more days and you will be back from Taiwan, haha. It's still very long. Hais...

2009-03-25T18:22:00.002+08:00

Why is my sister so selfish?

She's going to Malaysia next month and mummy asked her to bring mii there also but she said that she don't want. Of course, I'm very angry and ii even cried. She's going with her bf, he bf's friend and her friend. That is to say that, I'm not as good as them. ii won't plead, no way am ii doing this. ii rather not go out of Singapore for the rest of my life. She's always like that, treat other people BETTER than her own family. So what if she took leave or off day, all these days are not for us. All her time is for her bf, her bf's friend and her friend. ii don't see why they should meet every single day. ii always long for going out with her, just the two of us, but ii know that, this day will never come.

2009-03-24T13:29:00.003+08:00

Why do ii always have to make decisions???

ii feel like being a kid that ii don't have to make any decisions, no worries, carefree life. Why do ii have so many things to consider now? ii just want my life to be simple, without letting mii to decide any thing, that's all. I'm afraid to hurt myself, hurt people that ii really care. ii really don't want this kind of thing to happen. What I'm going to do now is not going to be right. What am ii going to do now?

I'm feeling helpless....

2009-03-16T17:47:00.002+08:00

Wow! Going to start school soon, felt a wee bit stress about it, hais.

Remembered ii mentioned something about the match-make? Yes, few weeks ago, ii finally plucked up my courage to call godmummy to ask her for korkor's email address. But, he went Brunei for training before the day ii called. What a coincidence! Actually I'm quite sad about it. ii thought to myself, this call will be the first and the last call ii would ever made. But, to my surprise, he contact mii himself when he came back. ii was overjoyed. Erm, although we might know each other for 18 years, but we didn't even chat once. We don't even know each other's name. It's unbelievable right? Most probably we're both very shy. Hmmm, I'm super happy to know him, he's a nice guy!

My cousin gave birth to a baby girl one month ago, and we attended little baby girl's full month party yesterday. Wicked witch is also there. Like ii said before, I'm not going to call her. Yes, she actually made a topic out of it. Trust her to be so childish. She said that ii didn't call her. Why should ii? Her children didn't call my mum also. She said that she hates mii, so, even if ii called her, she will also never reply mii. So, why should ii waste my saliva and get myself awkward in return! ii hate wicked witch!!!

2009-02-02T20:53:00.010+08:00

Had a great dinner yesterday night. Korkor and xiao yi's whole family came over to my house to have a reunion dinner. We " lao yu sheng " after the dinner. Jiejie bought scallop and fresh tuna fish to add on to the " yu sheng ". It's been long since our house is noisy, but ii like it, haas. After that ciao yi went off because my cousins have to attend school the next day. Korkor went off after them. At 11 plus, we received a long-distance call from new york. Yeshh! Aunt called. She told us that she might be coming back to Singapore for holiday in June or July. She might also be staying at my house. ii was so happy. It was almost 10 years since they're back here. ii really hope they will come back...

2009-01-30T19:05:00.002+08:00

ARGHH!! THE VOLCANO INSIDE MII IS GOING TO ERUPT IF THAT WITCH IS NOT GOING TO SHUT HER MOUTH UP.

Words coming out from her mouth is not pleasant. Everytime say bad things about my mum and even mii.. CRAZY! During the second day of chinese new year, xiaoyi asked my mum to give redpackets to my sixth auntie's child. Unfortunately, she knew ALL about it. So, she asked my sixth auntie if my mum got give her the redpackets. But before that, my mum already told my sixth auntie about that. My mum asked them not to say things about her. If she happens to ask, tell her that they don't know anything. And so, they followed what my mum said and told her that she didn't know that the redpackets is with my mum. She later claimed that my mum wanted to keep the redpacket herself. Who will want to take children's redpacket? ii really doubt that she used her brain to think. Few bucks also want to keep and somemore its for the kids. She also said that she HATES my whole family except for jiejie. Crazy witch, who wants her to LIKE us. As if we like them also. Even her daughter, own sisters and brother hates her. And she clamied that jiejie said she wanted to go her house bai nian. When ii asked jiejie, she said that she didn't say anything about chinese new year let alone going to her house. Now ii know why daddy HATES her whole family. ii finally know....

2009-01-27T22:03:00.002+08:00

Woo! Just came back from the visit to relatives place. So tired. Went to Grandma and Godmummy's place this afternoon. Played with my cousins and my uncle's son and my psp. A wee bit boring. Just when my cousin said that one of our auntie ( All of us HATE most ) looked like a wolf. My answer to him was " she don't look like a wolf, she looked MORE like a WITCH, a wicked witch. " Jiejie didn't heard us and ii told her that my cousin called her a wolf. To my surprise, my sis answer is the same as mine. Great mind thinks alike, haha. What she did to mii is so so ruthless then mii giving her a name. Calling her a witch is already very merciful to her. Whether or not she's going to reconcile with my mum, ii will not EVER call her " auntie " for being so respectful. A person who overturned what people had said isn't FIT for mii to respect her. Even if ii met her outside, ii will turn my face away from her. ii will just treat it that ii never knew this person in my life before. Just the way she treated us. So what if you like jiejie more than mii? ii don't give a hoot to it either. She's the one whom quarrel with my mum and here she dragged mii in to the picture. It's TOTALLY none of my business. Saying mii like as if a I'm a sinner. So, don't blame mii for being disrespectful. Enough of her. Saying happy things now.

At about 2 plus, we went to Godmummy's house. Godmummy's cooking is really delicious, just like my mum, hehe. She cooked nasi brani today. Really love her cooking. While we were at the kitchan, her son came in and said " mummy, why we are so short de? " ii broke into laughter. Erm, frankly speaking, he's a little bit shorter than mii only. We were chatting while eating. Then, don't know what happened, she suddenly tried to match-make her son ( korkor ) with mii. This is the second time she is trying to match-make mii with her son. But this time round is her 2nd son. ii don't really know that whether to warm weather or the hearing of the match-make made my face so red. Ohh! ii didn't have to put blusher on my cheek, haha. So embarrassed! ii don't even dare to look at korkor. After that ii cleaned up the dining table and went to wash up all the plates. Finally got a quiet place, ii thought. BUT, it's still not the end. She asked mii to date korkor for a movie, omg!!! Faint.... She said that she wanted to be the bridge to bring us together. AHHH!!!!!

2009-01-16T16:01:00.002+08:00

Yeah!! Korkor is being discharged from the hospital le, =D. Shiyun came over to visit korkor just now. Thank you so much worx. You're the only one who came to visit. Wo hao gan dong ohh! Btw, korkor's condition is much more stable than yesterday. He went through an operation yesterday night to take out the tooth. The doctor said that one of the blood vessels is being cut by the tooth and so it cause the blood to run. When my sis and mii reached the ward, the nurses there just wanted to push him to the operation room. ii looked at korkor and ii almost faint because his mouth and chin is full of blood and his shirt tuned red colour. He is still bleeding a lot at that time and so the doctor have to choice to do the operation. He bleed for almost 11 hours. Can you believe? It's exaggerating but it's the truth. When we're behind him, tears run down my cheeks. ii just feel very sad about that. He is my dearest after all and there's risk doing operation also. The scene made mii think of the movie " rec ". Then, it makes mii even more frightened. Because ii was walking too slow, mummy turn around to look at where I'm and she saw mii crying. She didn't say anything and after that korkor went in to the operation room, ii saw her wiping away her tears. She is very worried about korkor. ii should say that, we're all worried about korkor. The nurse told my mum that the operation might last one hour or more than that. If the operation is not successful, they might transfer him to the ICU. ii felt even more like fainting. ii totally have no mood to joke. It's anguished to see the one dearest to you being pushed to the operation room without knowing that whether he will be okie. The waiting for the results is also excruciating. But fortunate is, the operation is very successful. After he is being pushed back to the ward, we also went back home to rest.

A nightmare for mii. hais...

2009-01-15T17:44:00.002+08:00

Haissss...

My brother was admitted to the hospital. He fell in the toilet this morning at about 10 something and he knocked on his teeth and bleed. ii was sleeping at that time and mummy is out to the market. When my mum came back, she found my brother lying on the floor next to the toilet bowl with pool of blood. My mum wake mii up very quickly. Xiaoyi also came to my house to help mummy. Actually we're going out with xiaoyi but something happened to korkor and so we're not going. Korkor's blood did not stop flowing out. My mind was in a whirl and ii cried. The sight and smell of the blood made mii sick. Mummy even felt like fainting. Mummy called daddy to came home and see what to do with him. At last, we decided to call for the ambulance. After ii hang up the phone, the centre don't know from where called and asked if we needed any police to be around. ii was like huh? Why do we need police. ii told her that my brother fell down himself, not in a fight or what. After that, within few minutes, ii could hear the siren of the ambulance and they came up very quickly. After they've done everything, They carry korkor to the chair and daddy follow them into the ambulance. Korkor was sent to the A&E. ii packed up everything that is needed and get changed to take a cabby to the NUH A&E department. Jiejie also arrived very quickly also. We stayed there for hours waiting. ii just ring up mummy and asked her how is korkor and she told mii that the doctor can't stop the wound from bleeding. OMG!! It was 8 hours and they still can't stop the bleeding. ii really can't imagine the pain korkor had now. He lost a lot of blood also. * faint *... Going to the NUH again later with jiejie.

HAIS.....Kor, get well soon...

2009-01-11T23:46:00.003+08:00

Woo!! Just came back from jp with a lot of cny stuffs. Spent $200 plus at ntuc xtra. Before going to the ntuc, mummy watched the stage performance and there is prize giving if you participate on the games they are playing. Then mummy dragged mii up to the stage without letting mii to know what they are doing. ii told her that it was so embarrassing, ii don't want to go up. Then she told mii that first prize is $168 cash. By that time, ii was already on stage. OMG!!! SO EMBARRASSING!! My ever first time, haas. ii was looking at the floor all along, hehe. There's 3 group including us. So the game started, they asked questions and we answered. We answered most of the question and got the first prize. Yup, we got the $168 cash money, haas. We are so lucky! And mummy said she wanted to sponsor mii to buy a handphone. Woohoo! So excited...

2009-01-11T16:06:00.007+08:00

I woke up at 8am ( very early ) yesterday morning. Going bedok with jiejie to learn make-up which cost mii $3o. Arghh! So tired and the lesson is so expensive. The moment ii got out of the house, ii got stomachache. No time for mii to go toilet cos we're running out of time. No choice, ii have to endure the pain. It was torturing! The pain never stopped. OMG!! The pain was gone when ii reached that person's house. ii felt so relieved, =D. The lesson lasted for 2hr30mins. The most importantly, ii knew how to apply eyeliner, haha. But, the make-p yesterday was a wee bit too thick. ii wasn't very comfortable about it. My eyes looked so BIG and it felt so teary. Jiejie clever lorhh, brought shades out with her to cover her eyes, whereas mii, nothing to cover, hais. We went home after that because we don't really dare to wear sure think make-ups out. When ii was in the mrt, jiejie and mii got a place to sit and ii finally can use my hands to cover my eyes. Home sweet home finally, no people looking at mii, haas.

After that went to china town with daddy and mummy. Jiejie and korkor meet us there. We went to eat steamboat, haas. Hmm, quite nice and i'm the one who surrendered first. This was the first time we, as a whole family went out to eat steamboat together. We eat it at home normally because mummy's steamboat is much more delicious than the outside one's. After that went to shop around, bought a lot of things and went home. When we took a lift home, daddy pressed the no.5 button. When we reached, we went out the lift, ii was stunned. ii was like ehh, how come so different one? My neighbour's window also changed. The contractor so efficiency. They finished changing window within few hours. Then ii turned to look at the plate indicated the floorth, it was the 12th storey. Then we went back to the same lift again. ii pressed no.5 button again. We reached and we went out without looking at the storey plate. Then ii said, ya, correct le la..But then it was so different again. After that jiejie looked at the plate, we're at the 9th storey. * roll eyes * Then, we do the same things again. At last, we reached the 5th floor. Hmm, is it that the lift is playing a joke on us or is it something that stopped us from going home??? ii don't know....

Tiring but a joyful day for mii. Because, family is very IMPORTANT to mii.

Going jp de ntuc extra to buy cny stuffs tonight, haas. Gonna buy a lot of things...hehe

2009-01-06T23:02:00.004+08:00

Last night before ii went to bed, ii was lying on my bed, thinking...

Thinking about a friend?

Thinking about the vivid memory made mii cried. Drats, ii cried a lot this year, omg!! I'm going to become a " ai ku gui " le. ii don't like to cry but ii just couldn't control it. Human tends to let their imaginations run wild when they are alone or free from doing things. I'm actually frustrated about this, because it's been bugging mii for long. It's really LONG. But ii just couldn't get myself out of this particular thing. It's really hard. It's really really difficult. ii didn't tell anyone including besties about it because ii think they're also vexed about hearing the same thing over and over again. I'm so very sorry...

~ A tired mii......

2009-01-05T20:47:00.002+08:00

Have you people experienced crying in your dream and also found yourself sobbing when you are back to reality?

And...

I've experienced it twice. Both dream is about my friend. I almost forgotten what ii dreamt but I'm certainly sure that, it's not a nightmare. It left only a wee bit in my mind. Its about I'm at my birthday party with all my friends around. We were playing happily but after awhile, everything changed totally. ii cried in my dream and ii woke up to reality, weeping. ii couldn't stop weeping and after that fell asleep again. It's really not a very good experience I've had.

2008-12-28T17:33:00.012+08:00

A lot of people went to my 18th birthday celebration yesterday. Thank you all for coming. I really really felt delighted. Early in the morning, Mummy, Mingyang and mii went over to wash the bbq pit. Whoosh! Soooo dirty! haas. Before the bbq start, there's really a lot to prepare and just when ii really needed someone to help, shufeng smsed mii to ask whether ii needed help. He was the only one who initiated to help and he specially came down from woodlands, i'm really touched by that. After that, shiyun came over to my house to help also. Really thanks the two of you who came over to assist my mum for the preparations.

After everything is ready, we went to the destination. Bbq started in a short while and none of us here know who to start fire. Shufeng being part of the npcc forgot how to do it. But lester korkor is around to help, haas. In the mean while, daddy and mummy came over. Before that, daddy don't really want to come because of some reason but it's his " cute " daughter's big day, and he came at last. I was really happy that he came. After that, most of them reached and mummy says it's time to cut the cake. They sang mii the birthday song and bully mii after that. XiaoYi took one box for mii and asked mii to unwrap it. To my surprised, its a milk bottle. Xiaoyi wanted mii to suck it. Urghhh!! So embarrassing! But because ii was too slow in sucking it, she asked mii to take off the cover and drink, haas. This is not the only surprise ii received, there's still a lot more. I will reveal it one by one. After the milk bottle, shiyun asked mii to unwrap the present she gave mii and, it was a bikini bra set. It felt so bashful because all the guys are around mii. They even wanted mii to put it on. This is not the end, when ii wanted to enjoy my cake, mingyang, colin, shiyun and brenda gang up to frame mii up. Shiyun and brenda asked mummy to give them more cream. When ii was eating the cake, mingyang push mii down on my head and colin press the plate to my face. My whole face and hair was Soooo creamy and ii quickly went to wash it off. I regret for not bringing a towel there, sobsob. After that, dragged them all to play game until 11 plus. one of mummy's friend's daughter came over with 3 of HER friends. And after all my friends went off, another group came. Jiejie askes mii who they are, and my answer was ii don't know. * roll eyes * Everyone looked so like gangsters. They talk loudly like its their own place. Really don't know whose birthday party is that. After that, went off at 12 plus. I was so tired. Took a bath after ii reached home, ii smelled CREAMY. After my bath, ii received mingyang's called and he said : " Jie, happy belated birthday and i'm sorry for smashing you with the cake and you're forever my sis. " Upon hearing this, ii almost break into tears because this is the first time he said something that made mii so touched. After that, unwrapped every presents and redpackets, my most happy moment, haas. The most taxing, most tiring one is Mummy. MUMMY, XIN KU NI LE. WO AI NI OHH! All in all, ii have a very wonderful birthday party with you guys around. Thanks alot!! And also thanks for the presents and red packets!! I love them!

Thanks to…
Daddy & Mummy : The whole expense for the bbq
Jiejie & korkor : A box of perfume
shiyun : Bikini bra set
Brenda : Usb flora aroma fan, bathing rose petal, lip gloss & eyeshadow
Shufeng, Howchwen, Mingkang, Weili, Siyao & Alvin : Wallet
Xiaoyi : A bottle of Birdnest
Jiu ma : Belt
All aunty and uncles : Redpackets
Yongming, Shumin, Nicholas, Shiyun, Brenda : Birthday Wishes
Weizhi : Birthday song ( English & Chinese Version ) Haas

I really appreciate it. Thanks a lot. I love you guys!!! <3

A picture says a thousand words...Enjoy the pics below..

2008-12-20T21:29:00.007+08:00

Yeah! Yesterday went to watch Twilight with yunn, yunn's sis, brenn, brenn's cousin, yongming, weizhi and eddy at jp. It was freezing inside the cinema. One jacket is not enough for mii, haas. Erm, waited for this movie for quite a long time but i'm kind of disappointed about it. Seriously, I was expecting more from it. Although, it's similar to the novel, but they missed out some interesting parts. The most irritating thing was, there's no subtitles. Erm, but, it's still nice after all. After the movie, we went to look for place to have their dinner. Its dinner time and apparently, the restaurants were filled up with people. ii think we spend almost one hour finding for a place to eat. We ended up eating at feicui. It's definitely NORMAL for mii for not eating outside BUT it's certainly ABNORMAL for brenda who did not eat last night. ii couldn't believe my eyes. It's totally a miracle, haas. After that, shop around the new jp and went home after that. Good News, I'm sick again, haha. Yongming said I'm more skinny than the last time we met. He also told mii that ii looked weak and pale yesterday =(. AHH! ii still remember yongming and weizhi kept on cursing mii. Hais, pathetic mii, got bullied by them, T.T. Both of you better keep this in mind ahh.. ii will get it back from you de, wahahahaha. Woo hoo!

2008-12-07T20:55:00.003+08:00

It's my lunar birthday today. Mummy prepared mii and the family a bowl of " 面线 ". While ii was having this bowl of " mian xian ", ii felt so blessed. Because This bowl of " mian xian " filled with Mummy's love, carefulness and hardwork. Apparently, ii ate them all up, hehe. My stomach is filled of Mummy's love, carefulness and hardwork. Not only that, at 27th of december, she also hold a birthday celebration for mii. It's at a bbq corner at Jurong West, beside block 420. That's all. Ohya!! Last but not least, Despite my brother, I'm definitely, without any doubt, feel that I'm fortunate to be in this family. And ii certainly LOVE my family.

2008-11-23T11:17:00.001+08:00

Hmm, went queensway shopping centre with howchwen and siyao yesterday afternoon. It's been quite awhile since all of us met. Missed the old days, haas. ii was surprised that they asked mii out. And so, ii quickly prepare my things and went to howchwen's place. ii waited SOooo long then he came down. * rolled eyes * Don't know whether he make his gf wait for so long before? Hais. And then, finally he came down, we went to the bus stop to wait for siyao AGAIN. Aiyo! Pathetic mii, need to wait for another round, hais. After siyao arrived, we took 198 to queensway shopping center. ii was car sick, omg!! Have chats or rather gossiping in the bus, haas. Guys like gossiping, even worst then girls, hais. Ohya! Howchwen is even more narcissistic. He's in love with himself. Everytime asks the same question. " ehh, ii fit mahh? and ehh, ii handsome mahh? " * rolled eyes * ii really can't stand him. Siyao, still the same. His fringe suits him a lot, haas. Whole day felt so giddy, feverish and have a terrible headache. Still felt very sick now. Really hate the feeling of being sick...

2008-11-20T21:57:00.004+08:00

Hmmm, actually going out with daddy to buy the karaoke system but end up going suntec with shiyun. Haas, went to the bookfest to buy my newmoon and breaking dawn. I've bought ALL the twilight series, so happy.

After that ii accompany shiyun to watch rec. My god!! Not nice at all. ii dun like to watch this kind of movie, it's so disgusting. Blood everywhere, made mii feel nausea and dizzy. Tears flowing from my eyes also. Hmm, it's not touching and ii also don't know why ii cried. Tears coming from no where. Shivering not because of the aircon. The story is about zombies. ii hate zombie but ii love vampire, especially edward, hehe. ii dun actually know the ending because i'm not watchin it, ii used my jacket to cover my face. It's scary and ii didn't dare to take lift on my own, haha. Btw, this movie shouldn't be rated as N16. It should be M18. Warning : Don't watch it unless if you're bold enough. Hopefully ii won't have any nightmare tonight. *pray*

2008-11-17T11:56:00.015+08:00

Happy birthday to jiejie and korkor!!

Woahh! I'm blogging from friday onwards because I'm quite busy these few days.

Friday

Actually going to bookfest with shiyun but in the end ii didn't go with her. Erm, ii got my reason. Mummy needs to go ntuc to get the bbq thing for her chalet and she needed to but a lot of things, so ii decided to go with my mum. When we went back home, we defrost the chicken wings and after that started to bath the chickens. We pulled out the feather on the wings if we see any. ii also helped the chicken wings to do massage so that the it will be more tender, haha. After that, marinate the chicken wings. There's 91 chicken wings and 82 chicken chunks in total. Everything was prepared by mii and my mum. Knowing where is my sis? She's enjoying her movie and checking in to the chalet.

Saturday

10am went to have breakfast with my parents and after that meet brenda and shiyun to the chalet. Reached bedok mrt station and waited for jiejie and korkor to drive us there. Finally we reached the chalet. Unit number F1, haha. The room was so cooling, ii love it. After putting our belongings down, besties was hungry and we went to mac to buy their lunch. The mac is located so far away from our chalet. ii think we took 40 mins in total to and fro. After that, jiejie went to fetch mummy here. At the same time, my aunt and uncle reached to the chalet. During the waits, we played uno and murderer. The loser got to be punished by using powder to draw on their face. Shiyun got the most powder on her face, haha. After that, everybody arrived and we started the bbq-ing. Besties and mii helped my mum to wrap the stingray with the aluminium foil. We were so busy. My sis friends deliberately walked past and didn't offer to help. They only sat there chat. Many of their friends came but NON OF EACH Asked whether here is anything to help. * rolled eyes * Everyone sat there waiting for my uncle to bbq for there to eat. They so old already still don't know what is " zi dong ( automatic ) ". After finishing everything, we went to eat. ii ate very little, ii can still remember what ii ate. 1/4 plate of beehoon, 1 prawn, 1 satay, 1 otay, that's all. After that, jiejie wanted mii to go to the 7-11 to buy paper plates. And so, we travel all the way to the 7-11. On the way back, it was drizzling and we hurried back. When we went back, my favourite hotdog only left 1. ii was really sad but lucky mummy got leave some food for us. After eating, we sang the birthday song to jiejie and korkor. After finished everything, we played games, haha. ii love games with punishments, hexhex. Btw, this is the first time ii stayed overnight outside. ii was quite excited about it, haha.

At night shiyun and mii can't get to sleep whereas jiejie and korkor was soundly asleep. Korkor even snore, hehe. And so, we didn't want to wake them up, we decided to move our mattress to the first floor to play monopoly. The mattress was SUPER heavy and giggles while moving, hehe. We're like theif, carefully stealing the mattress without making noise but failed, haha. After that we played until 4 plus and ii was really tired and went to sleep. ii miss my bed, my baobao and my smell badly, sobsob.

Sunday

ii woke up at 9 plus. Felt dizzy and nausea. The whole room was turning was feeling very sick. Vomited twice in the morning. We need to check out before 11 plus and we quickly pack up our things to be ready for checking out. After that we went to old airport road to have our breakfast and finally HOME SWEET HOME. ii immediately fell asleep when ii was back home, haha. ii was really too tired.

2008-11-10T23:32:00.003+08:00

Did anybody watched " Life Transformers ( 心晴大动员 ) " before? It is host by Christopher Lee and Quan Yi Fong. This programme is was produced to help the less-fortunate groups of people in the community. Nice programme and touching also. You'll also cry with the person-concerned. If you're curious about my brother, there is two episodes of this variety that have similar conditions with my brother. My brother's condition is the combined of the previous and this week episode cases. The previous week, a case where this patient who is prone to violent. His condition is much more better than my brother. At least he could go to the special school. The only thing different is his father left him and his mother. I'm fortunate that my parents did not leave us alone knowing that my brother's condition is cure less. This week, a patient who is suffering from some illness that made her bedridden. Her condition is worst than my brother. She cannot eat and walk by herself. She needs her parents to support her. She and my brother suffers from " fit ". Fit is basically a cramp for the whole body but it's a transient attack. My brother is the combined of this two cases. His condition is erratic and taking care of him is really taxing, especially my parents. That's why ii can understand what is their pain and things they worry about.

This programme is good because it can let the people outside to know about the situation and the difficulties some of the families might face. At least to educate us like seeing the people suffering from illness, we'll not go like " ee, why they look like this? " When people said that, not only the patient will feel hurt or they didn't know anything, but their dear ones will also feel grieved. I'm saying these because I've met people doing these before. ii still remember ii have a a primary school friend who stayed away from mii when knowing my brother's situation. Apparently, she thought that this illness is contagious and therefore keep a distant from mii. Having thoughts like that is also natural and normal for humans. ii don't mind letting my friend to know about my brother. ii will not keep him away from my friends because he is also a human.

Alright, happy things now. Recently, I've been hooked on this book, Twilight. A modern day love story between a vampire and a human. It's really nice. This was the first time ii asked daddy to buy it for mii, haha. ii think he should be surprised by that. For the past seventeen years, I've never like reading especially those very thick ones. But after reading Twilight, ii totally changed my mindset after reading Twilight. ii shall move on to the next three novels; New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn written by Stephenie Meyer. The way she describe is fascinating. It's worth reading and ii love reading too! The movie is also coming out SOON. It's on the 18th of December. Looking forward to it, haas.

2008-11-02T13:50:00.002+08:00

Actually this few days ii already felt quite moody but yesterday's incident made mii even more sad. ii went out for dinner with my parents yesterday night and ii saw a friend of mine. ii didn't know why ii dare not call this friend of mine. ii just walked away. We were once a very good friend but due to some misunderstandings, we became like a stranger. When ii was taking a bus home, the past of ours kept flashing through my mind. Everything happened just like yesterday. A vivid recollection. Perhaps, I'm still brooding over this matter until now. ii hate myself for letting this friendship to bring to an end. It takes two to tango. Maybe we're just too stubborn to make a step forward.

We were once a best friend but why things became like that?? This is not the ending that ii wanted...

2008-10-30T11:56:00.003+08:00

Oops! So long never update my blog, spiderwebbie is growing on it le, haas.

Yeah! ii finally finished all my exams. Suddenly felt so relaxing. Every night before my exam, ii will go sleepless. I'm actually very tired but just can't get to sleep. When ii finally slept, it's already in the morning. Dark circles appearing, omg!! Hopefully, ii can have a nice sleep tonight because it's been a long time ii have a warmth sleep.

Today's math paper2 is really difficult, hais. ii even heard someone saying doing the math paper, do until bored. My sentiments too! Just joking, haas. Mummy went for the one day outing with her friends, she don't want to bring mii along, sobsob. No la, actually she went out at 8 plus when i'm seating for my exams, that's why ii cannot tag along. ( For your information, i'm actually a " gen pi cong " persistant follower. But only to my parents. ) Actually can go out with jiemeis earlier but ii have to look after my brother. Mummy will worry putting my brother alone at home. That's why ii have to wait until she reach home then ii can go out. Have to wait..~~~

2008-10-07T23:02:00.010+08:00

Know what happened to my arm?

All thanks to my brother. Today in the late afternoon, ii was talking with mingyang and colin outside my house. Don't know what happened, my brother from behind suddenly grabbed my arm without me noticing it. By the time ii reacted, my arm was already hurt and bleed. Yeah, BLEED. ii was blackout for seconds the moment ii saw blood and ii really can't stand the pain. ii was really flare up, ii pushed everything belongs to him on the table to the chair. ii knew that was really bad of mii but ii was really very angry. If this turns out to be my sis, she will not just push his things to the floor so simple. she will retaliate. She will make sure that his arms will have the same number scratches or even more. My Father made fun of mii, saying that the scratches looks like adidas stripes, 3 stripes, my favourite. That time ii was crying and ii know he said that to make mii laugh. And ii was like crazy, crying and laughing at the same time. After that, met brenda for tuition. She said that ii was looking pale. Losing so much blood, looking pale is normal, haas. My mum just helped mii with the bandaging and put medicine to my wounds, preventing it to get infection. And it was really, really PAINFUL and itchy. What worries mii now is that ii don't know whether it will leave any scar on my arm, ahhh!!~~ I'm really lucky that the scratches is not on my face. 我想这应该是不幸中的大幸. Phew!!~~

2008-09-30T12:07:00.003+08:00

I'm posting from Saturday onwards because I've no time to blog these days.

Saturday

Lester korkor drove us ( jiejie, mii, brenda and shiyun ) to heerens and he went for his spa after that. So relaxing, ii also want to go for spa, hehe. We went to shop around and ii bought one bob cap at $19.90. Actually ii also wanted to buy a ring, but, ii didn't bring enough money and wanted to lend from jiejie. BUT, after that, ii forgotten all about the ring. After that, went to far east and we chance encounter william and his friends. We chatted for a while and ii went to look for my sis. ii mistook one girl as my sis and luckily ii noticed that she isn't my sis before ii call her. It's so embarrassing. After that, korkor came over to far east and we went to eat mosburger. Met william and his friends again, haas.

After eating, Shiyun received a call from a agent from F1. She told shiyun that she need people to work for her. If she want to work, she need to report immediately. And so, the three of us went there without having our dinner. We reached there at 6 plus and we were told that, we're selling the F1 products, eg. shirt, key chains, caps, bags and a lot of them. We thought that it was an easy and fun job. We were excited when we heard " F1 ". Well, ii can tell you that, it's not fun and excited at all. In the first one hour, the sound of racing is quite interesting, " zroom, zroom ". but after that you'll feel irritating by that. The noise is deafening. We've to shout when serving the customers. It's very hot there. No air con, understandable, but, not even a fan. Everyone there is sweating like as if it was raining. After awhile, ii felt blackout but ii still endure and my hands are trembling. Because I'm really feeling unwell, ii called the agent to tell her that I'm not able to work on the next day. And she told mii that if ii didn't go for work, she will not give mii my salary. Then she asked mii to consider and hope to see my the next day. Well, ii worked so hard for you and now you're saying that you'll not giving mii my salary. You're like threatening mii and ii can go to the MOM ( ministry of manpower ) to report on you. We knocked off at 1 plus am. No bus service and didn't know the last train timing. And worst is, I'm not yet 18. Then clever mii, ii called up my sis to asked her whether she can drive mii back home or not. She didn't scold mii and came over from clementi to funan it mall to fetch mii and brenda home. ii fell asleep when ii was on the way home. ii reached home at about 2 plus. It was a tiring and torturing day.

When ii reached home ii immediately went to vomit. ii feel really sick. My sis helped mii to call the agent to tell her that I'm sick and not able to work for her the next day. Then she asked about my pay. She told my sis that she wil not give mii the salary if I'm not going. My sis was fed up and ii remembered she said this phrase, " they're humans, they're not animals. " Indeed, our resting time is 15 mins plus eating. It's definitely not enough. The food there is SUPER expensive. One bottle of sweet drink cost $ 3. Mineral water is $2. One hamburger cost $20 plus. One bowl of mee-siam cost $10.80. Can you imagine? How can we afford to buy such expensive meal. Back to the calling up to the agent. She said she will call back in 5 mins time but we waited for 10 mins and my sis called back again. She didn't answer the phone. We sent her a sms and she said they we're harassing her and when my sis saw the sms she sent back, she asked us to get changed to go police station to make a report on her. We took a cabbie down to the nearest police station. ii also brought along the contract we signed on that day. The policeman told us that it was a international contract and blah blah blah. The contract have a lot of confusing statements. And, all of us slept at 3 plus in the morning. It's not the salary problem that made us went for a police report, it's the attitude she gave and how they treated us during work.

Sunday

ii went to see a doctor in the morning to take an mc in case she sue mii for scraping the contract. The doctor said that I'm suffering from throat infection. And coughing made mii feel like vomiting. So, he prescribed medicine and antibiotic for mii as well as the mc. After that meet shiyun to asked her to help mii give the mc to the agent. After ii reached home, ii ate the medicine and slept the whole day. ii feel strengthless the whole day. The only thing ii can do is just sleep.

Monday

We went to the pan pacific hotel to collect our salary. After that, we went to heerens again to buy the ring ii wanted. When we reached there, the shop is closed and it's closed down forever. Yes, I'm just down on my luck. Brenda wanted to buy cap and we went to that shop again. Actually ii wanted to buy ring but ii end up buying a knitting cap, haas. After that went home, eat medicine and sleep again.

A lot of things happened these few days....

2008-09-23T13:00:00.004+08:00

Yesterday accompanied shiyun to find a bridal shop for the family photo at imm. The auntie at Double Up is very polite and we chatted quite a while there with her. ii also asked her about the rental price for the bridesmaid's dress. She said if jiejie went to her shop for wedding photo, she will not charge mii for the dress, =D. * Waiting for that day to come. *

Actually, ii also wanted to have a solemnly family photo but because of my brother, we put off the idea. He cannot go out and the last time he step out of the house is about 10 years ago if i'm not wrong. And without my brother in the photo, it ain't called a family photo. ii was a wee bit sad about that. My brother's situation is a fact and we're accustomed to him too. Since ii was young, he was already like that. There's one photo where my brother carried mii in his arms when ii was 2 or 3 years old. ii didn't know how to describe the feeling when ii saw that photo. You'll might think that ii was overstating it, but what ii said was true. The feeling is indescribable. That was the only photo with my brother and mii. There's happy times as well as difficult times. And of course, we survive through the difficult times. Maybe because of my brother, it brought mii closer to my Father, Mother and sister. It's also a blessing in disguise, perhaps. Having a family photo is always my biggest wish...

Mummy called mii this morning at 9.15am to go down to the polyclinic to look after my grandparents. They went here for a checkup and was assigned to different wards. ii prepared myself very quickly and went down to the polyclinic. ii went up to the second storey to find my grandma. The second storey is full of elderly and worst is, everyone looked like my grandma. ii was like, oh my god! Where's my grandma? haas...

2008-09-14T17:05:00.003+08:00

ii felt that our relationship is drifting apart. Am ii over-reacting or you are not sensitive enough? You're fully occupied everyday, but all your activities doesn't include us. I'm not blaming you or what, ii jus think that we've been neglecting each other. We hardly meet each other nowadays and ii really have no idea what you're doing recently. Sometimes, ii really envy william because although they might be busy with their things but, they still made an effort to meet each other at least once a week. Perhaps, we can only meet each other once in a month if we don't have any tuition. It's not that ii didn't want to contact you. It really flares up when sms or call you. You will take hours to reply and call back. Your highest record, 60 over missed calls from your poly friends. Even mii, a very patient person, gets irritated calling you. It's very difficult contacting you recently and it also will burn up my patience. Maybe ii think too much that makes mii can't get to sleep these few days.

ii want to go to the beach to listen to the sea's symphony. Because only listen to it will make mii feel better...

2008-09-10T22:38:00.032+08:00

Yeah! What a fun day! * Cheers *

Yesterday morning went out with mummy and jiejie for lunch. Actually, it's supposed to be breakfast but jiejie woke up late. That's why it's lunch. We went to one of the food court at jurong east to have our western food. jiejie ordered chargrill chicken and mii, black pepper chicken. Oh my god! It's super delicious and economic. It only cost $5.90 including the cold and hot sidedishes. It's cheap and taste heavenly. =)

At night, we went to chinese garden, The Lantern Fantasy 2008 featuring hello kitty and friends. We walked all the way to the chinese garden. 5 of us went in and the price is about $60, $12 per person. It's quite expensive but its worth the trip. ii was very excited like a kid, hehe. Erm, it's kind of warm there, should bring the pocket fan along. The only thing ii was disappointed in was, the seven-storey pagoda “Ru Yun Ta” cannot be climbed. They closed up the entrance.=(

路边的野花不要采哦！

So matching..hehe..

OHHH! So sweet~~~ Mu..uacks!!

Our chinese names..京才,尤妮 & 纬妮

Lester, Eunice & Winnie

ii didn’t know why everyone asked mii to help to take a picture of them. 助人为快乐之本, haas. They are quite polite and ii do them the favor. Anyway it’s an easy job, I’m the camera-woman, haas. Actually, some of the hello kitties is inside the enclosed area. We shouldn’t have entering it. But the fence surrounding the hello kitty was damaged and everyone including us went in to take pictures. The guards there came over to chase us out of the enclosed area. We were very disobedient and somehow clever, we went in again when the guards went off. It’s very bad of us making them running all over the place, haas. It’s kind of dangerous due to high voltage. Erm, actually it’s fine having a free perming, haas. 姐姐是有练过的哦！小朋友们千万不要学哦！

2008-09-07T13:05:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went to china town with my parents. Thought of shopping but jiejie called mii to say that something happened to my brother. She even said that blood was everywhere in the house. ii shivered upon hearing the word " blood. " All of us have no mood to shop and mummy was very worried about my brother's condition. Jiejie came over as fast as she could to drive us home. And, all of us including jiejie and lester korkor didn't have our dinner. It was raining cats and dogs. Mummy was also vexed that our kitchen will " flood " because we didn't close the window before we went out. Anxiety was written all over mummy's face. We reached home very quickly and ii went up with my parents. It was lucky that no blood was seen by mii because jiejie have cleaned it. But, the smell of blood is still very strong. ii almost faint, haha. My brother have a cut on his lips. Mummy suspect that he might knocked into something that made him bleed. After mummy have finished all the things, we went out for dinner.

Every family have it's own problem...家家有本难念的经...

2008-09-06T15:08:00.003+08:00

Haas, ii love watching horror movies especially those that can scare you to death ones, haas. Yesterday, watched 4bia with William at vivo. ii didn't know that this show is nc16 and they need to check ez link or IC in order to sell us the ticket. Worst is ii didn't bring any of them with mii. But, god of luck is with mii. We went to look for shiyun who's working at esprit to lend ex link card from her, hehe. After that, we went to queue up for the tickets again. Long queue but I'm not the one who is queuing, haas. But, ii think it's worth it, cause, 4bia is really nice. They succeed in making you scream, laugh and very, very scared. Ahh! Just remembered, William bought a " ah pek " shirt which really looked nice on him, =p. But this " ah pek " shirt is not cheap. Guys spend money without a nibbling pain in their heart, haas. Hmm, chat with him after that and went home. Erm, we have a lot to chat and a lot to argue, haas. Going to china town later on with my parents, hehe. Shopping....HAHA!!!

2008-09-04T18:12:00.012+08:00

ii update le. Sorry for not updating these few days because i've been busy watchin the x-family. A very nice show that will laugh and cry with the actors, haha. Erm, went out with jiemeis on monday. We seldom meet up because they are almost fully scheduled and me, fully unoccupied. That's why we have lesser time to meet. Erm, we went to newyork newyork at citylink to have "their" lunch. Know why is "their" lunch? Cause i've no money to eat such expensive meal. Sat there doing nothing, feeling sleepy. But, after this indian boy came over to play pool, ii was totally "awaken" by him. He was very busy going round the table and trying to "sweep" the balls into the holes. His actions and pose really made us broke into laughter. And ii " tou pai " a few shots of him, haas..

2008-08-29T16:51:00.017+08:00

Got a lot to post today, haas...

Wednesday

Meet up with William to marina. First impression, tall and skinny, haha. What makes mii envy and a bit angry is that he don't fat so easily. That's every girls' wish, ii think. Second impression, very dramatic and funny guy. That is why his friend gave him a pet name " drama papa ". haha. Oops! Can ii say it here? You don't mind de right? hehe. I'm sorry to trouble him to lead mii the way because I'm a ROAD IDIOT. Wo ye bu xiang de ah!! dui bu qi ohh!!

Thursday

Went to beach road with my parents to collect the ntuc voucher. As you all knew that ii was a road idiot, ii certainly didn't know how to go even though jiejie showed mii the map. But, lucky is that, daddy is going with us. He is a living map and nothing is impossible to him, haha. We reached the destination very quickly. After that went to bugis for a walk. Bought a lot of things, mostly is mine, hehe. =) Ohya! Before ii forget, ii saw moriji and it's the one and only left in the shop. ii went to the other outlets to find but failed. And, ii saw the last one at bugis, ii didn't want to put it down after i've took it. Am ii lucky? haha...

Friday

Woke up early in the morning, thought of going back school with jiemeis to celebrate teachers' day BUT when we reached, we could only see the security guards and cleaners. No teachers and students around. Know what, they have cross-country today at jurong park. It slipped my mind that our school held cross-country on teachers' day. Mingyang smsed mii yesterday to asked mii about dianyong's number. He called mii jiejie some more. Only got some things to ask from mii then he'll call mii jiejie, if not winnie the pooh. Asked him when is our school celebrating teachers' day and didn't even reply mii. SMY, you better remember this, humpff. 有事钟无艳，没事夏迎春...

These was the necklaces ii bought recently, haha... Nice?

Wonder who's Moriji and Mokozi? Orange colour = Moriji ( My favourite ) Green = Mokozi. =)

2008-08-26T14:38:00.000+08:00

I was in seventh heaven especially these two days. Saturday morning, ii went for a hair cutting with jiejie and korkor. They sent mii home after that. This was the FIRST time ii went out alone with them without daddy and mummy. Sunday, we, the whole family went out for breakfast and dinner together. After the dinner, daddy and mummy wanted to watch " ge tai ". We, the youngsters weren’t interested in that and we went for our shopping at imm. ii was really really happy shopping with them. Even if you gave mii a bitter gourd to eat, it also taste sweet like honey. Jiejie asked mii whether ii wanted to follow them to Hong Kong next year and ii was like, am ii dreaming? Or am ii hearing things wrongly? Erm, jiejie treated mii differently from the past. ii was elated and touched of course. ii really hope that it was last...

I didn't want to go imm and jurong point in the mean time now. I've been to there many times for just this week. Saturday night went imm with daddy and mummy for dinner. Sunday afternoon went jurong point and imm with Joyce ( my ex-colleague ). At night with jiejie to imm. Yesterday afternoon with shiyun. And, later with brenda to imm. Oh my goodness!!! Went to imm for 4 consecutive days. Faint...

One of my relatives lent 1k from mii and ii realized ii have left with only 20 dollars in my bank. 1k isn't a small amount, sobsob. He wanted to declare bankrupt and ii think I’m the first one to be bankrupt. ii really hope he will return mii but will he? Oh my god!!

2008-08-22T15:58:00.004+08:00

Wahahaha, I'm back from my english oral, yeah! ii went to jurong secondary school for this exam. Worst is, ii didn't know how to go and mummy accompanied mii there. ii admit, I'm a road idiot, hehe. After that mummy left and ii saw a idian girl named Nazreen that is walking towards the general office. ii approached her. Can you imagine, winnie will approach someone that she didn't know? We went up the hall and there was nobody around. We went there too early, hehe. And, we chat and realised that we were from the same primary school. We're ex-school mates, haha. During the oral, ii was extremely nervous. Nervous and more nervous. ii was trembling when ii gave my entry proof and NRIC to the examiner. ii think they felt it, haha. ii felt very relax after the oral, haha.

ii was at the 7th lunar month dinner yesterday. Sat with mingyang again. Jokes from him started right at the beginning of the dinner. Laughing throughout the whole dinner, haha. Laugh untill ii stomachache. He is really capable of making everyone laugh. He loves eating the kou rou bao. You know how much he ate? Haha, the answer was 3, with all the fillings inside. Oh my goodness! That is very exaggerating right? Haha...

2008-08-09T13:14:00.002+08:00

There goes my fireworks...=(

No meet up with jiemeis. So sorriiee yunn, cos ii really don't feel like going out today. Really envy brenn because she can watch the whole performance including the fireworks. I've been waiting long for this firework but....Maybe have to wait till end of this year. ii have to wait again. =( But ii think it's worth the wait. =)

Yup, went to mustafa again yesterday night. We lost our way when travelling there and we took almost 45 minutes to reach there. ii think we'll need two days and two night or even more if i'm the one who is to direct them the way, haha. Turning here and there makes mii feel nauseous. But ii felt very happy. ii loved going out together as one family including lester korkor. ii hope there'll be more and more outings with them. Humans are the greedy ones. I'm contented as long as our heart beat as one.

Erm, looks like jiejie made the correct choice by choosing lester korkor. Looking at how delighted she was now, mii as her meimei also felt happy for her. 祝你们白头谐老, 早生贵子...Oops! Too early to say that, =D. Mu....uacks..

2008-08-07T23:13:00.002+08:00

ii went to a law firm with aunt and mummy. Aunt wanted to have a divorce with her spouse that have an affair outside. They have lived apart for a continuous period of 3 years. Her spouse asked my aunt not to tell the lawyer that he's having an affair outside. He wanted to use temperament not capability as a reason for divorcing. He told my aunt that he don't want the custody of children. He earned not much every month and have a problem bringing money back home and yet he still wanted to have an affair outside. He didn't even have the ability to have an affair. What a irresponsible man he is. Btw, his mistress is much more older than him. When the lawyer heard it, he laughed. He said, who would want to find a mistress that is older than him. My aunt suffered from low blood pressure that needs to be hospitalised every 2-3 months to have an input of blood into her body. It was inherited by the elders. She asked my two cousins, what if mummy die? You'll want to go back to daddy's side or your aunty's side. They said they don't want anybody to look after. They wanted to go orphanage. The elder brother told my aunt that he would take care of his brother. When ii heard that, ii almost cried. I'm not being too emotional. It's just that they are still young to undertake all the consequences. Children are always the innocent ones. They are primary 5 and 6 kids yet needed to bear burdens. From my point of view, children around this age should have a happy family and play as much as they like. But it's a different case to my cousin. =(

Meeting jiemeis this saturday. Accompany brenn for a hair cutting at tampinese mall then after that going vivo for my cutie moriji. Going tampines mall for just a hair cut, isn't it exaggerate? Only brenn will do this, haha. Actually planning to go marina to watch fireworks but they say it's too crowded and it's very inconvenient. So, no choice have to cancel away this idea. Really sad because ii love watching fireworks since young . It's been awhile since ii watched it. The longest period of fireworks is on the actual day. ii want watch fireworks! It's okie la, since jiemeis don't want to go. Two versus one, hais. SAD... =(

2008-08-02T14:10:00.004+08:00

Yesterday went to watch " money not enough 2 " with jiemeis at junction 8. We chanced encounter huimin who was going for her cca. Erm, back to the movie. It's a very hilarious but also a touching movie. Perhaps all the people in the cinema was weeping. Even a guy beside mii took out a tissue paper to wipe away his tears. It was very cold inside and ii didn't bring a jacket along. No choice have to share it with shiyun because it's freezing.

Humans are the most emotional creature in the world, ii supposed.

ii wanted to buy moriji at action city but they didn't have it at bishan outlets. ii want to go vivo. Who is willing to go with mii? Sobsob...

2008-07-29T22:19:00.004+08:00

I've done something that ii should be proud of myself just now. Wondering what it is? ii think my jiemeis will be very happy for mii. How should ii put it? Okie, I've tore up the letter that was meant for him. I've kept this letter for weeks wondering to give him. I've also seeked help from many of them whether to give him the letter. They gave mii lots of suggestions but eventually the decision lies within mii. This letter have given mii lots of problem. But in the end, ii decided not to give him, but to the rubbish bin. Actually, ii also tore up my heart as well. ii felt so much relieved after that. In fact, ii should have done this earlier. When ii was tearing up this letter, my music player was playing the song " Bleeding heart " at the same time. Was it a kind of coincidence? Or the heaven is playing a trick on mii? Or maybe ii shouldn't have written this letter in the first place. No wonder people say " troubles are often self-sought. "

Yup, live have to go on, no use clinging to the past. Anyway, what's past is past. We should look forward... ii must really thank the people that have shown concern for mii especially mummy, brenda and shiyun. They are always the one beside mii when im feeling blue. There's still a lot of them that ii should've thank. Erm, you all should know who you are. ii really appreciate it, really. Thanks a lot guys. And don't worry, I've put every single thing behind mii. Not thinking about the past. I'm a brand new winnie now. XD. Congrats mii??haha...

2008-07-25T16:32:00.006+08:00

Most of us was surprised by daddy just now. First of all, daddy loves eating king of the fruits, durian but his daughter, that is mii, don't really like but will still eat. Just now, daddy brought one basket of durian home. Those big big baskets containing 38 durians inside. Isn't that amazing?haas. Daddy often surprises us by his actions. Now, ii can eat until ii vomit, *faint*.

It's a lot right??? * Faint *

2008-07-20T23:05:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST DADDY!! MUACKS!!

Yesterday afternoon shiyun, qiqi ( shiyun's sis ), mii and my daddy went to mustafa to window shop. We walked all the way there from bugis to little india. It's a long long trip. ii really have to take my hats off qiqi because she didn't even groan for walking so long. Whereas mii, walk halfway, my legs already felt tired. So disgrace of mii, haas. Until 4 or 5 something, the three girls was hungry due to the long walk and we decided to fill our stomach first. It was raining and we walked to the NEAREST sheng siong supermarket to eat. For your information, it's not very near. * Faint * ii hope daddy will enjoy the trip together with us because it was his birthday yesterday.

ii have a great talk with " R uncle " yesterday night, haas. What makes mii excited most was, the whole room was mine because jiejie went chalet and stay overnight there. But only for yesterday, sobsob. ii have a nice sleep and my mum couldn't wake mii up in the morning.

Just now, the whole of my family included my bro-in-law-to-be went to " dian xiao er " located at vivo city to celebrate daddy's birthday. But before that ii was feeling giddy because of that stupid car park. It was in swirl type and our car need to follow it until the forth floor. By the time we reached, ii was already half dead. But fortunately, it didn't affect my appetite. All of us had our fill there. After the sumptuous meal, we went shopping. ii bought a Adidas shirt at 55 bucks. ii still felt nibbling pain inside my heart now. My next target is newurbanmale's tank top, haha. We rushed back home to watch the incredible tales. My favourite tv show, hehe. Unfortunately, ii missed the first 10 minutes but lucky ii still have mobtv, haha. ii can watch it whenever ii like.

After the show, jiejie told us something she met in the chalet. She said that when she was asleep, she sensed that something was pressing her down on the bed. She cannot even move and utter a sound for a couple of minutes. It happens on 3 something midnight where other's were soundly asleep. When they first checked-in in the afternoon, they discovered that the place was very dirty. Not those footprints from dirty shoes or what. It's like nobody used that particular unit for years. The dirt was very thick. I'm sure that the unit was vacant for years. Maybe " something " happened few years ago and they left it vacant. My sis friend was " suay " enough to rent the " dirty " place. Before that ii even asked my sis to bring mii there, ii was fortunate enough because ii wanted to accompany daddy and didn't tag along. If it was mii in her situation, ii will faint, really faint. Talking about this makes my hair stand...* cold * ii was even more determined that the particular unit was spooky because my brother was " excited " when we talked about the incident my sis was having. Hopefully, everything will be alright tomorrow. ii will stop here, goodnight everyone...

Before & After....

2008-07-18T18:20:00.003+08:00

ii accompanied brenda to a temple afternoon and what makes my blood boils is that the man working there told mii that he miss my mum. For your information, my mum and mii went to this temple very often. She knew quite a number of them there. But what makes mii angry is that, he told mii he miss my mum. At that very moment, ii told him that, uncle, my father wil come and beat you. And he quickly change the subject. Asking mii where I'm studying now and those that don't concern about him. How can he say this kind of thing to mii? And, ii still have a friend around. * ROLL EYES * ii really hate this kind of people and some more he is working in a temple. From what ii knew so far, temple is a place where we worship our deities and it's a sacred place. How dare he say this kind of thing in front of ALL the deities. It was preposterous! Since he worked in the temple, he knew very clearly what he should do and what he shouldn't do, what he can say and what he cannot say. ii will bring my father there one day and tell him, say it in front of my father if you have guts. But i'm sure that he will not come to a good end. No worries because ii will go to the temple with my mum next time whenever she wanted to. ii will not let her going alone. Spare mii from what ii said here because i'm just stating the truth.

2008-07-14T20:08:00.003+08:00

Why is love so complex yet so many are yearning for it? Why love can't be as simple as ABCs? Why it cannot be just ii love you and you love mii? That simple! Why do we have to make it so complicated? Or actually love can be as simple, it's only the way we think, the way we deemed it to be. Perhaps human's are a complicated one's. In my opinion, love is sweet eventhough u drank a coffee without adding sugar. It will only happen in the honeymoon period. But once it's over, it just taste bland. It will be in a different case if both of you are meant for each other. Don't ever break your heart over someone so easily, you'll end up hurting yourself even more. What meant to be yours, will be yours. Similarly, what ought to be ended should be ended.

To my surprise, this is the forth time ii dreamt about him. Oh my god! ii didn't want to. ii didn't know why. Actually, i've stop thinking about him and live my own life. My mum's friend asked mii whether is he my boyfriend. My answer to it was no la, he is only a normal friend. ii can even act out that he is not. And im not sad over it anymore. ii didn't know why ii still dream about him. now, ii only hope to let this matter rest, after all, it's in the past. And ii hope it won't affect mii, the most important one.

Brenda is having some problem with her boyfriend again. Should it be a stepping stone for them or not, it's up to them whether to solve the problem together. Although, onlooker's see better but we can only see the outer side of it and not the inner side. You knew it better than us. The conclusion of us is not as important, the most major one is what's in your mind. What are you thinking, not us. We can have a lot of opinion, but the only fact is within you. It's your choice whether to carry on with the relatonship or end it. We can carry out a lot of suggestions, but it's only whether you'll listen. We've said what we can, it's up to you to listen. As your bestfriend, what we can do is share your problems with you, listen to you and give suggestions but not command you to do anything. ii also don't want you to be in my so called " xia chang ".

2008-07-12T00:52:00.003+08:00

爱是无所不在的，
很多人也许现在是孤单的，
也许你很努力找寻自己的真爱，
或许你可以停下脚步，
看看你四周的人，
其实你身旁的人也是有属于他可爱的一面。

其实这个世界是很美好的，
也许现在你是孤单一个人，
也许你急着要谈恋爱，
可是你急着=找到的人，
可能不是你真正想要的人。

所以不要勉强自己去喜欢上一个人，
这样会使你自己过得不开心。

两个人在一起最重要的就是开心，
如果连最基本的开心的做不到了，
我想那也是该说离开的时候了。

但是如果感情要走到分手的這一步，
一定会有人受到伤害的。

试着把话说清楚，
让彼此的伤害降到最低，
失去的人也不要太难过，
地球不会因为你而不转，
大家也不会因为你而不吃饭。

所以振作起来吧！！
为下一段恋情做准备吧！！

感情是证明的，
不是嘴巴说的。

2008-07-10T11:22:00.006+08:00

I've been a stupid fool all along. You lied to me in the beginning and NOW then ii knew all about it. I've been kept in the dark from the day ii knew you. ii always thought that you are different from the others but you proved mii wrong. You made mii smile and yet pushed mii into the hell. This is how you treat mii. If not " R " uncle told mii, ii wouldn't have know the shortcomings about you. I'm totally dismayed! Not because you left mii but because you've been lying to mii all along. GUYS CANNOT BE TRUSTED!!!! 原来我一直是被蒙在鼓里的那个笨蛋...

No wonder shiyun said ii " but jiu ta stamp. " It's true, I'm indeed " but jiu ta stamp. " And ii think, only my future husband will take the " stamp " away from my eyes. I've seen the wrong person in the wrong time and at the wrong place. I have myself to blame getting to know this kind of guy. A Casanova's. Normally, a Casanovas will not call themself a Casanova's. They will act as a very devoted kind and emphasize the words on " I"M NOT A CASANOVA'S ". Can't you just be yourself? You're just a wolf in sheep's clothing. You acted out everything and ii think it also include the feelings towards mii. You exploited the trust ii had in you. All men are the same. They're sweet and gentle when wooing you, but once they've succeeded, they became entirely different. Time reveals a man's heart. You'll have your come-uppance...

Things ii held so dear to seems so insignificant now. ii feel so stymied. The only thing that's constant is change. Is this the extent of my abilities?

人始终是感性的。有那么多回忆，虽然有好有不好，但也不能像电脑那样想删除就删除...

如果有一天，你走进我的心里，你一定会哭，因为里面装满你的点滴...如果有一天，我走进你的心里，我也一定会哭，因为里面找不到我的身影...

2008-07-08T12:56:00.002+08:00

没想到过了那么久我还是会梦到他...

这已经是第三次了...

我还放不下吗？我不知道...

我唯一知道的是，执着于一段没有感情的关系，倒不如试着放开你自己和对方...

也许你会觉得很难，可是长痛不如短痛，早一点做出一个了断...

起初会很难过也很辛苦，可是过了一段时间，你就会觉得为什么那时你会这么执着...

与其捉住一个心已经不在你这里的人，让彼此不开心，倒不如放开彼此，去找一段属于你自己的幸福。

一个已经没有任何感情的关系，在捉住也没有，你只会让自己更痛苦...

感觉一旦失去了，就是失去了...

就算你多努力地想要挽回也是于事无补...

就算挽回了，那段感情也不会再回到从前...

一个已经有了裂痕的感情，就像一道疤痕，永远都会留在你的心上...

想要抹掉也没有用...

感情是两个人的事，而不是一个人的事...

光靠你自己是没有用的，除非对方也有心想要挽回...

2008-07-01T22:34:00.009+08:00

EMO-IN~~~~

Although you pm mii in msn yesterday but ii don't really enjoyed it. ii felt frustrated and bewildered.
Before that ii didn't know that you will online and ii even thought that u have already blocked and deleted mii. Never did ii thought that you will online and even pm mii. The first reaction ii had was shocked. ii didn't know why my heart was racing and why my hands are so cold. ii don't know whether to be happy or not. You threw mii a question instead of saying those hi or hello to mii. ii think u really don't treat mii as a friend at all now. ii did chat with your friends before because ii wanted to clarify some things from them. Am ii wrong in doing that? You told mii they laughed at mii. And my reply was never mind. You said you don't know what i'm thinking. Same to me, ii also don't know what is in your mind. What you expect mii to say? Say ii care what they say about mii or what? They are your friend. ii didn't want to tense up your relationship with them. ii didn't want to put you in a spot. Do you care? You told mii, they say and you listen. Do you really care? If you are, you will stop them from what they are saying. Do you even bother to speak up for mii? NO. OR am ii an embarrassment to you? Are you ashamed that ii was once you girlfriend? MY GOSH!!!!!!!! Who would like people to say bad things behind their back? Please, try putting yourself in my shoes. What will you do if you were mii? What will you do or even say when you are in my position? ii can't stop what they want to say. ii can't possibly glue up their mouth right? So what exactly you want mii to do or say? Please tell mii what you want mii to say. Please come straight to the point. Now then ii realise you really don't understand mii at all. If you know mii, you weren't be telling mii all these to upset mii even more. Yeah, you claimed that you don't know what I'm thinking. Indeed and that's for sure because you don't understand mii at all and you didn't even want to understand mii. Am ii right? What ii can do is stop all the chats between mii and your friends from now onwards. Are you satisfy now? And now, ii totally lost my judgement and thoughts towards people as well as the confidence in myself. ii can't differentiate who is speaking the truth and who is not. ii don't even dare to face myself. ii feel as if I'd been stabbed in the chest over and over again. Please, I'm pleading you, don't take mii as a idiot, can you?

ii always thought that giving in can make the relationship last longer but I'm wrong. You know why ii didn't quarrel or threw temper at you? It's not that ii don't have any temper. That's because ii didn't want our relationship to turn sour. Then, ii realise that for a relationship to work, the couple must learn to give and take. There's no way you can have a relationship to last long when a party just give in and the other take. Anyway, it's already too late to say all these things.

What's wrong with mii??

2008-07-01T10:49:00.012+08:00

2008-06-30T11:13:00.018+08:00

Yesterday had an fun as well as a boring day out to sentosa. ii woke up at 7.20am to prepare all my stuff and leave home at 8.50am with jiejie. My brother-in-law-to-be wanted to drive mii there but we went for their breakfast first. ii didn't eat because ii was having stomachache, aww! Their been hoon smelt so nice and looked delicious that lester korkor ate up all the been hoon quickly and left nothing inside the plate. ii also feel like eating, sobsob. And ii only had a cup of coke for my breakfast. After that lester korkor drove mii to jurong east interchange and ii ran to the mrt station as ii assumed that everyone was there already. And ii was late, so sorry about it.

We reached vivo and went to sentosa don't know which beach. ii can't remember what beach we went to, haha. I'm a road idiot remember? Haas. We soon found a shelter that nobody is using. Erm, for your information, only 9 of them including mii went for the so called class outing, hais. But we have fun and our girls talk when all the guys went off for their swim and tanning. Talked about the break-ups and all that, haha. The guys bought liquor there and they enjoyed it in the hot sun. And soon, they got a bit tipsy. It's very obvious, all of them were crazy about certain things, haha. The most carzy things they did was, they attempted to throw huimin and mii in to the sea. Alvin lim ping hong even pulled my hair and dragged mii. ii struggled of course and tried to run away but ii came to realise something. No matter how long a girl's leg can be and how skinny you are, you will always lose to a guy whether he is fat or short when you have a running competition. But huimin was in the worst case, they carried her, haha. Fortunately, nobody was throw in to the water. Huimin, huirong and me left the guys after that because we really felt boring. Huimin got a little bit tipsy when we left, haha. For this so called class outing, only huimin, huirong, me, howchwen, siyao, alvin, jianfeng, hazig and ridzwan.

The most saddest thing was the three of us didn't want to get dark but eventually the outcome is on the contrary. MY GOD! All of us got sunburned but i'm not only one who got sunburned on my face. =( My cheek and nose went red. People who didn't know that ii went to beach will think that ii drank liquor although ii didn't or put on a heavy make ups. Obviously, nobody will put blusher on the nose right? haha. Ya, think i'm the only one but it's not blusher. Guess what, when ii came out from the toilet, daddy says i'm very " ai mei " because ii put make up at home. Daddy always like to tease mii, hehe... After the bath, ii fell asleep with my hair wrapped with towel. I'm totally bushed. But ii forced myself to wake up at 10pm to watch incredible tales. ii went to bed after watching the show. And, ii went soundly asleep. It's been a while since ii was soundly asleep...

Woot~ sexy sexy! * Drooling, haas. Joking...

Looked like a model in those men's magazine?

Know what R.I.P means?? It's REST IN PEACE. May you rest in peace! CHOY! TOUCH WOOD!

Huimin helping howchwen to put mascara, haas

Pretty worx...

Oh my god! What are they doing? =X

Emo-ing...

There are more photos on huimin's phone. Will upload when ii gotten it. Stay tuned.

2008-06-28T17:45:00.002+08:00

Hmm, supposed to be a class outing tomorrow but many of them is not going. It was quite disappointing as ii really thought that this was the first and last time we will be meeting each other and yet they didn't want to go. ii knew that every one is busy with their own work but this was really the last time to meet up. It's really not easy to meet everybody. Think it's just mission impossible. May be ii chose to go for the class outing not to have fun but to have sometime for myself to straighten out my thoughts. This year is a bad year to be in a relationship. Why ii said so because friends around mii broke up with one another. If not, they are like going to break kind.

Yesterday ii have a chat with macus and kaixiang, they told mii a lot of things related to him. But guess what, they are all his shortcomings, haha. After the chat, ii went to bed but ii couldn't get to sleep. ii was tossing and turning the whole night but not thinking of him. ii just can't get to sleep. Until 4 something in the mornin, my hp rang. Brenda called mii to chat up. Just nice, ii couldn't sleep, haha. ii thought something happened between her and her bf, scare mii. We have a long chat until 5 plus and both of us went to bed respectively.

Bren, he really don't worth you to commit suicide over him. In fact, no man or woman worth your death, you understand? ii know you're just saying out of pique but please don't do something silly. They really don't worth it. Even mii, thinking a lot type also don't think it this way. What you think is really wrong. Don't forget you still have your family and friends who really care about you. Please keep it in mind.

2008-06-27T20:59:00.005+08:00

Awwww! Just because of one t-shirt, and he don't want to go for our class outing. ii knew traveling around is very troublesome but now it's our class outing. We seldom meet up. If im not wrong, the last time we met is when we took the o level results. It's long right? And, he can jolly well said : " so? " when ii told him it's our class outing. He seems indifferent towards the class outing. It really made my blood boil, irritating guy. This is the first time ii have a tiff with someone in msn. He broke my record, preposterous! His chivalry is dead! ii just wanted everybody to meet up at this happy occasion, am ii wrong? ii only wanted everyone to be happy and have fun, am ii wrong? Am ii? This is a happy occasion, ii didn't want to tense up everything. I'm sorry if ii said something wrong. ii knew i'm over-sensitive and i've already apologized. It's up to him whether to accept it or not. Anyway, my conscience is clear about it.

2008-06-18T20:41:00.003+08:00

Brenda asked mii whether ii will think about the things mii and him went through. And my answer was ii cannot not think about it as he was my first bf. It's said that one's first love is usually a flop and it's not easy to get over someone you really love. Maybe time will heal all the wounds but it's a matter of time. To mii, ii think ii should be a long long time to get over it. A lot of them told mii to forget him but you know it's easy said than done. ii also wanted to wipe him off my memory but ii really can't do it. ii knew thinking of him will only bring mii sadness but ii also don't like to. It's like ii don't have the choice but to only think of him and it's driving mii crazy. I still can't get over him. ii very much want to hate him but ii fail to do it. I have myself to blame that i've been hurt by him. ii appreciate everyone's concern but ii just can't wipe him off my mind. Give mii some time, i'll brace up.Okie, enough of this...=(

Shiyun and mii went to city hall just now and ii bought a ring at $13.90, haas. ii love rings especially the big big ones. We went window shopping and ii saw a lot of things that ii like but ii got no money to buy, sad sad. ii broke le, hais. We went to esplanade. ii love going there maybe its because of the ambience and the memories i've got there. After that we went to take mrt home. It's really really cramp. One indian lady behind mii keep on pushing mii and put her hands on the grap pole. One thing that disgust me the most was, she actually dig her nose and put her hand back to the grap pole. ii was like * roll eyes *. OH MY GOD! Faint. She can simply just take out a tissue paper at least that makes it more clean and less disgusting. That moment, ii really wanted to get off the train as quickly as ii could. When ii reached my blk and waiting for the lift, one doggy came running towards mii. The first reaction ii had was to scream and run away. That dog chase after mii, so scary. That little dog looked so small but very fierce. Cannot judge a person by it's cover, haas. My heart was palpitating vehemently and like going to faint. It was really scary. i'm afraid that the dog might bite mii. But lucky, he ran quite slow, if not...=x William says that when dogs are scared, they bark fiercely. But when you give them some padding, they will not bark again. Erm, can see that he really really love dogs. ii love dogs but ii don't really dare to stay close to them. Perhaps ii have a phobia towards dogs.

I'm going to be a tutor for my THREE cousins starting from tomorrow onwards. ii don't know if i'm able to be a tutor as this is my first time but i'm going to try my very best to teach them what ii know. ii may not be a very good tutor as i'm not a professional but i'm sure i'll be a good cousin to teach them whether in studies or manners. BUT ii really can't imagine what will happen tomorrow. I'm not sure whether ii could stand the noise they make. If you've saw my previous posts, no matter where they go, the place would be filled of their voices. THUNDERRRROUS!!! OH MY GOD!!! ii really can't imagine. Heard my auntie said that i'm their nineth tuition teacher. They've kicked out eighth tutor and i'm not sure whether i'm the number ninth. Hope not. Shiyun asked mii whther about the tuition fees and ii only took the transportation fee from my auntie cos the first thing, i'm not sure that ii will be able to take up the job. Second, what if after ii taught them, they failed, their father will blame mii. ii think its better to do it this way, conscience clear to mii so long ii did my very best to teach them. Awwww!!!

2008-06-16T10:42:00.010+08:00

Happy belated Father's day! Both me and my sis brought daddy out for dinner at zheng fa restaurant yesterday night. And of course, we all had our fill there. ii was very busy snapping down the sumptuous meal and ate very slow. Slower than everybody, =D. Have everybody heard of nice food needs to be tasted slowly? Haas. The food there is delicious and the washroom is very clean too. But waitresses and waiters are very clumsy. They broke many glasses there, maybe it's too crowded and they are also very busy. It was a recommended place to go. Lester korkor ordered durian pudding for the dessert and he said : " 哇！真的是榴琏叻！Then ii replied him : " 废话！难道是芒果meh! " Everyone laughed. It's the fact what. Durian should taste like durian, durian shouldn't taste like mango. =D

After that we went to Jurong Point and we bought a lot of things. Luckily we have a car to drive us home. When we were walking to the car park, ii asked mummy something. ii asked her, since jiejie found a guy who truly loves and dote on her, is she still worried about her? She said she is not worried about her anymore but she is much more worried about me. Yes, lester korkor really treat jiejie and us very good. I felt happy for jiejie because she finally found her prince charming. Erm, so when will be my prince charming appear? *waiting*...

ii accompany shiyun to queensway shopping center and anchor point just now. Have laughter on the way there, haha.

Looks like dinosaur and ostrich right?

Asparagus with scallops

Bamboo clam

Giant Garoupa

Live prawn with mayonnaise

Spinach with bean curd and crab eggs

Mango sago with ice-cream

Longan jelly and durian pudding

Bird nest found outside jurong point

Don't think that ii didn't mention about him doesn't mean that ii have let go everything...

2008-06-14T17:58:00.009+08:00

ii suddenly have the urge of buying watch and of course ii bought one at imm yesterday. I've been eyeing for one odm watch for very long. Finally, ii have one now, so excited. This watch is very unique and fashionable but it was not cheap. Erm, not revealing about the price. So far ii have a collection of 3 odm and 2 Adidas ( one is a red limited edition Adidas watch bought by my sis for my birthday present ). For your information, ii love to collect watches, =). Maybe it's my hobby as well. =)

Father's day is on this Sunday and ii bought a cushion for daddy. It was not a normal cushion but a 2-in-1 cushion massager. It was very very cute because it was a strawberry cushion massager hehe.

2008-06-07T17:07:00.001+08:00

Human beings are born to be stubborn. At times, we knew that things won't happen the way we want and have a really bad ending but we still hold on to it, not letting it go. If only we are not so stubborn, maybe things won't turn out this way. If only... ii know there is no sure thing as in if only. But somehow we all get used to saying " if only ". If only this, if only that. Sometimes it's good to be stubborn but not to the extent because it takes you no where. These are the things that is beyond our control. Do you believe in predestination? ii do believe in it. Everything is being predestined. There's nothing we can do with it, so just obey and not blame it.

Brenda, if he work for the casino, both of you will have to be apart from each other. In this two years, anything might happen whether to him or you. Cherish the one you love, don't give up so easily. If really have no choice but to part with him, you'll not regret because you've cherished him once. If he dares to bully you, ii will make his life hell. Tell him this. ii will support you, dun worry, hehe. Wish you all the best.

As for shiyun, you'll find one guy that you both love each other. Remember this, it's better to be friends first. Try to know each other better, it will help. And, outer beauty lasts for only 30 years, but inner beauty lasts forever. Don't be so inferior in yourself, i'm sure you'll find one guy that suits you. Look at you, you've become more prettier than last time. Continue to be more and more pretty, hehe.

As for mii, trying very hard to forget him. Trying very hard to run away from this, haha. Last time ii used almost 6 years to forget him. How many years ii need to forget every little thing about him? Although i'm still young but 6 years is really very long. I've lesser faith in myself. Going to lose more faith, ii think. You all should know, it's not easy to forsake someone you love. One week le...

Actually, mummy knew we are together but ii still told her that. ii am both very happy and sad
because ii don't ever need to hide something from her but it's too late. It's really too late. ii regret for not letting her know about us earlier. Regretting for hiding something from her. ii promise ii will not do this again to her. ii promise...

For the very first time ii went for a manicure with my jiemeis. After our manicure, brenda and mii went to mc to look for jiejie. Jiejie and my future brother-in-law, lester korkor treat mii french fries, =D. After that discussed about my future niece. I'm not going to have my freedom when my little niece come to earth. There goes my freedom and dating with ??. My gosh! =(. But seeing how he treat jiejie, ii really felt happy for them. ii will not have to worry so much, hehe. Lester korkor drove us to imm, so sweet of him, hehe. I've never dreamt of being so good with jiejie. I'm really really delighted. ii love daddy, mummy, korkor, jiejie and lester korkor, hehe..

I'm feeling down these days but i'm fortunate enough because i've my family and jiemeis beside mii to encourage mii. Thanks a lot. ii really appreciate it...

2008-06-06T23:09:00.004+08:00

Having a great day out with my jiemeis, =D, and going for a manicure tomorrow with them, hehe.

Sometimes really think that things happened a little too fast. May be it's time we should walk on a slower pace and enjoy the things or scenery beside you or in front of you. ii think i'm caught in the middle, don't know to stay put or move on or can ii just say ii didn't have the courage to move on. Things really happen too fast that ii didn't even have the time analyse what exactly have happened. Everytime when ii say ii wanted to put everything behind but ii just can't do that. The more ii want it to be, the more ii think about it. I'm very foolish isn't it? ii still remembered he like to drink chrysanthemum tea. ii still remembered he only smoke skl cherry and viceroy menthol light. ii still remembered him saying " veli good " and " na bei ". This shouldn't appear in my blog and shouldn't said by mii. Please forgive mii for writting my first vulgarity in this blog. It meant no harm and this should be the first time and the last time im doing this. ii still remembered he is very fussy when it comes to food. ii still remembered how he treat mii before and after. ii still remembered the first and the last time we meet. ii still remembered how his friends say about mii. ii still remembered he loves wearing skinny jeans and the colour red. ii still remembered he don't like to carry a bag because he think that it was very bulky. ii still remembered he saying himself " shuai ". ii still remembered every littlle thing about him. It's really not easy to let go. ii tried but ii really can't do that. ii really think that i'm useless, really USELESS. ii tried very hard to be happy and smile everytime and ii thought that nobody will know but never did ii realise that shiyun see through mii. ii was stumped at that moment because ii really thought that no one will know.

At times, it's good to be muddle-headed...

2008-06-06T00:00:00.010+08:00

Went to mummy friend's chalet with shiyun and my dearest mummy. Apart from the unhappiness, buy I'm having an enjoyable day out. Auntie's chalet is located at chevron again and the most coincidence is, it was the same place and same room from last time mingkang's sis chalet. What a coincidence, haha. ii straight away jumped in the pool when ii reached there. Poor shiyun have to wait for mii. Shiyun can be a paparazzi because she " tou pai " mii when ii was taking out my clothes, hais. Erm, people out there must beware of her, haha. It's been a long time since ii swam. ii really miss swimming, haha.

After swimming, ii went bathing and shiyun went along with mii. The whole toilet was very quite. Lucky shiyun went in with mii if not ii think ii wont even want to bath. It's really scary. For your information, im a " dan xiao gui ", haha. Shiyun have n mini concert in the toilet, haha. We went to eat after bathing. The food was delicious because the chicken wings, fish and prawns is all barbecued by mummy, hehe. Ya, mummy is bbq queen, haha. Have a lot of fun there, may be is because ii just wanted to put everything behind mii and wanted to enjoy. Shiyun and mii felt bored after that and we are so narcissist. You'll know how narcissistic we are below...

Going to bed le.. Goodnight everybody...=)

男生們看一下吧!!好好疼愛你的另一半!

2008-06-03T15:05:00.004+08:00

女生，是需要珍惜的。

想想當初你見到她是多麼開心，她的一頻一笑都讓你注意，
現在，她跟你在一起了。

女生多半會幫男朋友想，
怕他太累．怕他錢花太多，所以不敢叫他帶他去吃大餐，去玩好的，
但是，你有沒有注意過，當她在跟你說不用的時候，其實眼睛裡還是會帶有一絲期待。

也許男生會想，我都跟她那麼熟了，有些東西，節日就該免了吧，
但是雖然再熟，雖然你少去這些東西，她不會對你怎樣，
但是你何不在國際周送束鮮花，在情人節製造點浪漫，聖誕節加一點驚喜，
你會發現其實女生嘴上說不在意，當她收到你的心意時，是多麼的高興，
而不是說她已經跟你在一起了，就不用像以前在追她時那樣對她，把一切都省了。

女生總是不敢開口要求，總是為了男生想好多，
男孩子何不多想一些，多做一點點，你會發現，女孩子好感動，好高興。

既然愛她，就多用一點心在她身上，
所謂的用心，不是只有把時間花在她身上，
而是要去探尋她的內心，學著去懂她，
她需要的是什麼，她想表達但沒說出來的是什麼，
只要男生肯用心，將會發現，
她的一舉一動，在在都在表現著她對你的愛，無可取代。

很多時候很多小事情小動作，都是有涵義在裡面的，
如果你不用心，只有等到後來她離開了你，
才惋惜，才後悔。

兩個人能相愛，並不容易，
愛情，並不只是因為需要有一個人疼，
它也是一種成長，一種領悟。

當你遇到一個願意與你心靈互相交會的女生，
一個願意為你付出的女生，
她的快樂與幸福，就是你的責任。

女人的心，男人若不能保護，
我們就沒有資格談愛談幸福談……

2008-05-29T18:30:00.005+08:00

Yesterday ii went to sheng siong located at jurong west. After that we went to a temple in the vicinity because daddy and mummy wanted to watch the " ge tai ". We need to pass through a big car park and a big patch of grassland in order to reach the place. Due to the rain in the afternoon, the grass is wet and it's very muddy. My noble daddy and mummy knew that ii don't like to walk on grass, they piggybacked me throughout. So touching but ii also felt very sorry for them because I'm not so light. Deardear should know, hehe. I'm so lucky this year, my dearest daddy, mummy and deardear piggybacked me, haas. They are my beloved daddy, mummy and deardear. =)

ii went to collect my sunglasses in the post office in the morning with mummy, haas. It's finally here! I've waited for 2 weeks and ii finally received it today. I'm so excited! Deardear, you don't have to return me the 25 bucks le, good news right? XD. Poor deardear got bitten by the irritating insects and didn't get a wink of sleep last night. Should be very painful and itchy. The insects felt tempted by deardear's sweet sweet blood, =p. Endure few days and it should be fine after that. Ke lian de deardear...=(

2008-05-28T16:51:00.002+08:00

ii went westmall with mummy, auntie and her three kids. It's chaotic. My three cousins is really naughty. They ran around like the shopping centre is theirs. When ii was around their age, ii don't even dare to let go my mummy's hand let alone run off myself. Nowadays kids are really difficult to teach. Even primary school kids know what is vulgarities and spoke like no one else's business. Auntie wanted to shop for flip-flops because her three children insisted to buy. So we went to tom & stefanie. What ii can say was, the whole tom and stefanie was filled with my cousins voices. Can you imagine? Oh my goodness! Their voices was thunderous. They don't speak like we normally do, they shout when they talk. ii still remember there was a time ii asked my little cousin whether is his throat pain. haha. If it's me, ii think ii will lose my voice for a couple of days. ii really don't know how my auntie can tolerate it. What a noble mummy. Mummy and me went to the kids clothing session and ii saw one shirt that can fit on me, haha. ii can wear children's shirt, oh my god! So cute, hehe.

My cousin wanted to treat me kfc because ii helped him print the digimon coloring paper. To what i have expected, the whole kfc is still filled with their voices. They are really giving me and mummy headache, hais. ii really take my hats off to my auntie.

Yesterday one guy from my msn suddenly pm me and asked me to go watch movie with him. ( For your information, he is the guy whom ii bought psp from. Because daddy have something about psp to ask him, so mummy asked me to give him my msn. ) He told me that he wanted to be my bf, oh my god! This is ridiculous, ii only met him once and I've forgotten how he looked like. ii rejected him right away and claimed that ii have bf. He said that he should ask mii to be his gf earlier, crazy. He is real desperate for girls. He even said that ii was a gem, ridiculous, crazy and stupidity. He asked for my hp number and ii offline immediately. Fortunate that he didn't have my number, haha.

2008-05-23T14:52:00.005+08:00

I'm having the runs these few days, hardly have any strength, hais. Is it food poisoning? ii also not sure, hehe. Maybe i'm down on my luck these days and also the ones beside mii are also being dragged into the picture. Deardear is also have a spate of bad luck. This is all my fault. Mii and my stupid foul mouth, hais.

Deardear, ii just saw what your friend wrote about you in their nick. ii don't know ii should be sad or angry. Sad is that you will feel sad after seeing what they wrote. Angry is that they are your friends and yet they wrote these things about you and didn't care about how you feel. I'm sorry to cause you so much trouble, knowing that you are feeling stressful and ii still create troubles for you, sorry. But from what ii think, they really interfere too much le. They are going overboard in doing that. 让你为难了...

Now ii really hope that deardear will be free from stress and bad luck that was tied to him. If bad luck can transfer to another people, ii wished that ii will be the one who store the unluckiness for him. So that he can be fortunate always. =) Deardear, remember 1408 oh, you must leave it for mii oh...hehe...♥♥♥...muacks...